just sit back and hold on but hold on tight.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

It's the usual sunday morning:D
Then did Chemistry in the afternoon while helping mum and dad to pack some CNY goodies.
Out for dinner at Sembawang Shopping Centre Ajisen.
I think their standards dropped quite a bit
Saw Starbucks and was rather tempted.
I want to chill at Starbucks again!
Homed and watch show:D

I've been relatively happy these few days:D
It's a new week of sch tomorrow and it's one hectic week
with all the supplementary lessons in the afternoon.
And tomorow is tutorial day?
except for physics supplementary which is returning papers.

And I'm guarding my heart:D
If you know what it means.
On the other hand,
watching sad shows make me feel emo:(

Ciao:D

I need loads of luck to survive this week happily.

Jumping rooftops @ 9:26 PM

Saturday, January 30, 2010

A F word can describe the entire Friday and Saturday.
Nope it's not the usual 4 letter swear word
Gosh what were you thinking?
It's FUN!

Movie date with Janet, Gregory, Zhengjie and Heng Yong ytd.
Met Greg at 3.30 (supposedly) to buy tix.
Went to NTUC to supposedly buy drinks.
Saw darren and pointed out to greg but Greg said I saw the wrong person
Then Janet and Zhengjie came
And saw Darren AGAIN and I asked "are you sure that's not Darren?"
Greg still say "no" but Zhengjie and Janet was like "it is la!!"
And IT IS!! lol
And Greg still made it sound like I was some cockeyed idiot. lol.
Spy Next Door was NICE and not to mention FUNNY too.
Although perhaps Hengyong and Zhengjie felt cheated cos they didn't know it was a "kiddy" show.
Dinner at the new Popeyes at Jubilee.
Not too bad:D
Then walked around AMK hub and homed:D
I'm a good girl that goes home early!!

Today was welcome party for the new sec 1 GB girls
Games was fun
Chrades were even better cos at the end was the teachers and helpers acting
and the thing was "Micheal Jackson Eating a Hamburger"
And the end product was super hilarious!!!
Pizzas make me very happy too.
So does Rachel sudden appearance
Although I kinda ps-ed her for lunch cos there was PD:(
SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then PD wasn't too bad.
I guess they learnt it quite fast considering they never did PD before.
BB wasn't there though.
Apparently they didn't know
Then ate more pizza and then homed:D
I'm a good girl that goes home early

And my "being a cheapo" plan is totally not working!!!!!
I hate the pag eon my bank acc right now.
All the withdrawals :'(

Activating "cheapo" mode. *beep*

Well, I'm gonna do my tutorials:D
Weili is a good girl that stays at home on saturday nights to do her tutorial:D

Jumping rooftops @ 9:42 PM

Thursday, January 28, 2010

I guess it's a sensitive topic uh.

Jumping rooftops @ 9:46 PM

I’m looking for a place
I’m searching for a face
Is anybody here i know
Cos nothing’s going right
and Everythings a mess
And no-one like’s to be alone

why is everything so confusing
Maybe i’m just out of my mind

Jumping rooftops @ 9:01 PM

I just haven't met you yet...

I only need to survive one more day and I'll have the weekend to chill.
Haven't got back any test papers yet.
Seriously, although teachers said the moment you walk out you know how well (or bad) you score
I don't know what to expect seriously.
Cos I don't even remember what I wrote etc.
And Things can be rather unexpected.

Was totally tired in school today.
New J1s came in and walked in mobs.
PE was tiring. As we were one of the last 2 teams,
had to run 3 round = 1.2km:(
Played Tchoukball which is a very lame game.
But it was funny.
Leslie's epic fails and many other random stuffs.

Lectures were not so "nice"
Got targeted in Chem
Maths was like riding on a bullet train.
Okay. Make it trying to catch a bullet train

But Chem SPA was nice
Did QA and observations of PPT etc.
It's been super long since I did that
But one thing though.
Ammonia seriously stinks like mad cows.

Movie tomorrow with Greg and the rest

one more day...

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Jumping rooftops @ 8:23 PM

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Nope I'm not gonna be the one that make things right
Why must I always be the one.
Freaking chicken nuggets.

I need to get my act together.
Find an aim and work towards it.
Floating aimlessly around sucks.
And there's still 9-10 mths to go.

And I'm still controlling my emotions.
I'm in control man!!
Almost joined "I Hate When People Make Plans Then They Back Out At The Last Minute!" group on Facebook.
But I guess if i do it will cause "public outrage"
So control.
Resist the temptation.

On the bright side,
I think I found someone to motivate me:D
It's like back in sec 4 when I strive to pass Add maths.
Same logic and theory but diff person now.

And I'm gonna sleep by 11pm everyday
Or I'll turn into a monster tomorrow.

And like yesterday,
I really hope situations improve.
But on the other hand,
I'm sick and tired of being the one mending things.
And on the another hand
I don't really care.
Or at least that's what I tell myself.

Screw 2010.
Full of freaking obstacles and shit.

Jumping rooftops @ 10:01 PM

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

There's this depression bug going around
The air is heavy and so are the footsteps.
No mood...

But it's amazing how some can still be happy-go-lucky.
Their immune system is really powerful uh.

Is it me or is 2010 really crappy?
I never had a worse year.
Seriously.

And it's only January.

Jumping rooftops @ 9:44 PM

oh. I'm gonna start mugging soon.
Really soon :((

bye life.

Jumping rooftops @ 8:40 PM

I don't know how to feel
Depressed and demoralized is just an understatement

Situation improving and yet stagnant.
In a way I don't care and in another way I do.

Should I be happy I scored 15/20 for chem mcq?
But paper 3 is surely GG.

Tired.
Gonna complete the goal setting thingy and sleep early for once.

I'm "weeding" out the "friends".

Jumping rooftops @ 8:03 PM

Monday, January 25, 2010

I think everything's falling apart right now.
Life's not right
I can't even tell who are actually my friends anymore

So many things happening both inside and outside school
Not that anyone gives a damn about me these days.

There's no point in everything I do.
Studying, going to school, or perhaps even living.
Not that I'm suicidal or anything right now.

I'm sick and tired of it all.
Getting demoralized over shit.
Feel like escaping for a few days.
Away from all that's happening.

I shouldn't have entered JC in the first place.
that's all I can say.

Jumping rooftops @ 10:31 PM

don't judge me.

yes.
I'm vulgar
I'm being a prick/dickhead by being unforgiving
I'm unreasonable
I'm blaming others even though it's not really their fault
I'm making a mountain out of a molehill

I don't know what to do.
Apologize and be a hypocrite?
For exchange of world peace!!!

!@#$!@#$!@#$!@$!@#$!@#$!@#$!@#$!@#$!@#$

THIS IS ME
deal with it

Jumping rooftops @ 6:49 PM

It's really amazing that
tolerance and forgiveness level of some is like so wonderful
i do admire it.

But I'm not that kind of person.
If you step on my toes not once but twice,
chances are that,
unless there's a sincere apology or valid reason,
I'll continue hating the person with all my heart.

And I seriously despise/detest people who act as though nothing happened
Like hello??
Whatever happened to their EQ?

I think it has transition into something like acquaintances
people who you'll say bye to after 2 years.
and probably never see again.

I'm not God.
I can't stop myself from wanting to kill them when i see them.
Or just scream and shout.
That's why i rather ignore and just shut up.

and i think i've mellowed a shit load.
because in the past, i don't think i'll be able to keep it all in.
and censor all those words.

I hate going to school not because of lessons.
2010 sucks ttm.

Jumping rooftops @ 5:53 PM

Sunday, January 24, 2010

I gonne renew my resolution of not saying vulgarities out loud
since i broke it already on friday
despite trying self censorship and thinking before saying
so gonna try it again!!
see how long will it last this time round

went out with Yanru and Vichra today to city Hall.
it was fun eating at subway
walking and shopping around
chilling out and talking at Starbucks
bought a braclet and a "clutch"
notice the " " because it's not really a clutch

then went over to raffles city to shop at john little and robinson
still haven't found a dress for CNY
special request from dearest mummy to wear dress this year
so i guess i shall try to please her this time round
provided i find one thatis nice and cheap
not like those $1 from being a 3 digit we saw today

I don't know how i'll actually react tomorrow.
Like facing those FAAs
Cos i really don't want to break my resolution again so soon
and although it's not our fault in the first place,
but i also don't really know how to feel

so I guess it's one word replies and all:))
and hopefully the word is not !@#@

Jumping rooftops @ 9:32 PM

Saturday, January 23, 2010

BBQ ytd was great
for once we don't need to cook and don't get to eat.
we had fun.
without all the FAAs around

and for those that missed it
too bad.
we've decided not to plan any further ones.
why?
simple

cos every time you all only know how to complain and criticize
and we're the one doing the sai kang all the time
and all those who PSed last minute
to think we actually belong to the same group of friends
and to think one of them actually got pissed off because he got psed recently.

so the future class outings won't be planned by us anymore
if you all want it jolly well plan them yourselves.

it just take a couple of FIAAs to ruin the day
and my resolution of not sprouting vulgarities out loud

argh. to hell with them
can stop cursing them even though it's been a day.

I really don't get it.
oh by the way. F is the usual 4 letter word, A is antisocial and Asshole and I is idiotic:D

to think that i was looking forward to be back in class
guess i was totally wrong.
on the bright side, it's only a few more months.
guess it's time all the true colours get let out.

and some that came really pissed me off too.

can't really be bothered by it anymore after venting
Fuck them.

Jumping rooftops @ 9:44 PM

Friday, January 22, 2010

i know i'm not supposed to be here right now
I should be either sleeping or studying

2 letters for tomorrow
GG!

Jumping rooftops @ 12:25 AM

Thursday, January 21, 2010

oh did i mention
i cut my fringe and my 2 tails
myself when i had a mental breakdown.
and now
i can safely say
i'm not cut out to be a hairdresser when i grow up

infer....

Jumping rooftops @ 11:07 PM

everyone's drifting away from one another
I really believed in "friends forever"
but i guess that notion is not applicable in current society

notice the word believED

infer...

Jumping rooftops @ 8:37 PM

when i saw your convo window pop up the moment i signed in
my heart skipped a beat
until i realised that once again
I've clicked on you out of habit
and the feeling that's left
is one of loneliness

last paper tomorrow.
my brain is totally rebelling
and screaming in protest
but it's the last one.
should be okay i hope.

and BBQ at night..
although it's like 0.5 0925 BBQ.
cos most aren't going
apparently it's too last minute.
but it's alright.
remember our plan:D
let's enjoy it no matter what^^

gtg.
having a real bad headache right now

Jumping rooftops @ 8:33 PM

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Maths was alright to a certain extent.
somehow, i don't know whether it's hard or i'm unprepared.
kinda dissapointed with myself.
made so many little mistake
forgotten how to do:(

but it's just blocks.
screw it.

chem's tomorrow:((((((

tata.

Jumping rooftops @ 8:51 PM

i'm scared
will i b able to do it tmr?
i'm not as prepared as i would like to be
how???

shan't worry anymore
for now,
sleep's more impt.

good luck 0925:)))

Jumping rooftops @ 1:11 AM

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

I've always been skeptical abt the fact that skip 2 people and you'll find a mutual friend.

And now i've realised,

SINGAPORE IS FREAKING SMALL!!!!!!!!

to think that he knows her.
Luckily i did not let slip anything
or give too much hints.
too scary :'(

back to hit the books.
or rather paper.

Jumping rooftops @ 10:57 PM

exams are just a waste of of precious resources
like electricity to power the air-con and lights,
trees to manufacture our paper,
and lastly and most precious of all........ brain cells.

I think there's a great probability that I'm screwed tomorrow for maths

bye 68 :( hello 40?

:'(

studying today was fun.
filled with laughter and great company
perhaps not as productive but better then if i was to stay at home
typing this would be a pretty good example

things to look forward to,
0925 BBQ!
We just LOVE and ADORE having BBQ!
all the SATAYS:D

BYE!

and the kazhua went to try to memorise.

Jumping rooftops @ 9:47 PM

Monday, January 18, 2010

GP was actually okay. Manageable in a way but pass or fail I'm not too sure. Don't know how strict are they marking it. It's year 2 after all.

Geog is totally GG!
Died at the first question.
How am I suppose to know what it is without learning?
And it's not in the lecture.
At least not explicitly.

studying at the usual place tmr:D

night!

and the kazhua went away.

Jumping rooftops @ 10:00 PM

Having a dad who watches my name is earl totally rock!!

Jumping rooftops @ 12:15 AM

i need loads of luck tomorrow
so i'll appreciate it if you can lend me some if you're reading this
i'll return you your luck on friday when blocks is over:D

night~

and the kazhua went to the loan sharks to borrow luck.

Jumping rooftops @ 12:08 AM

Sunday, January 17, 2010

brain at bursting point but nothing seems to be going in:(

on the bright side, we only need to study for geog tomorrow as GP is paper 2
which means no essay! :D
and paper 2 should be relatively easier.
at least to me.

Geog is GG-ed!!!
hopefully it'll all be alright

Jumping rooftops @ 5:56 PM

never felt so unprepared before:((

and the best part? it's tomorrow!!!

oh-mi-gosh

Jumping rooftops @ 4:34 PM

the one important thing we have today that we didn't have 18 years ago?

ME!

Jumping rooftops @ 12:12 AM

Chemical formula of water is : H I J K L M N O

H to O. gettit?

LOL

Jumping rooftops @ 12:10 AM

Saturday, January 16, 2010

having a wifi phone is good.
i get to lie down and blog:))
hapiness

went for dinner with rach, Yu Ting and mich.
just acia @ dhoby exchange.
it wasn't too bad.
good food n company:))
then walked to orchard
shopped an homed:))
blog more tomorrow.
really gonna sleep now

and the kazhua went zzzzzz.

Jumping rooftops @ 1:10 AM

Friday, January 15, 2010

I love you mum and dad. I really do.
sleep tight.

Jumping rooftops @ 1:11 AM

I'm okay right now
after ranting abt how i felt these few days.

I really still love them a lot.
eventhough sometimes they can be rather demanding towards me.
and maybe it's their way of saying they haven't give up on me?

but the fact is that i don't like having expectations being placed on me.
it's rather stiffling and being the free minded me,
it's like locking me in a cage.
and i really don't like it one bit.

I'm going to do my best not for others anymore
but rather,
it's for myself this time round:))

although i predict that i won't do well this time round.

it's late and i'm off to sleep.

Jumping rooftops @ 12:57 AM

Thursday, January 14, 2010

life's unfair.

If it was me in that situation, I think the outcome would be totally different. I won't be let off easily. It's unfair.

Why place all your hopes on me when there's another person around?
why force me to do things that i don't like?
why must I be the only one trying hard to meet expectations?
why must i be the only one that gets lectured when i dont meet them?
why must there be double standards for different people?

yes i'm unhappy. yes i'm angry. yes i think it's freaking unfair.

I'm not gonna try hard to please you anymore.
So what if i don't meet your expectations?
I never do. Why?
Cos your expectations will be higher that what i can acheive.
even if i score all A's, you won't be satisfied.
as long as there's someone better, im never good enough.

but guess what.
i can bet you my life that if you are in my shoes,
you won't even be able to match up with me
things are different now.
it's time you realised that instead of setting unattainable expectations.

I'm not a robot!! it's about time you realised it.

Jumping rooftops @ 10:49 PM

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

pissed off.
don't want to talk.
bye.

Jumping rooftops @ 9:55 PM

For some reason, today was super tiring.

Went to sch early as usual to do some left over work a.k.a. chem exercise. Michelle G. and Zhiyun werr having PE and there was some other people sitting at 0925's usual spot so it was weird. Almost walked over and sat down as my brain wasn't functioning well at all in the morning.

Tutorials were alright. Physics was hilarious as usual when Mr. Chow tried to use the Smart board! Trying to test the pen then erasing but drawing instead. And GP wasn't that bad:) First lessons was quite interesting and funny as well. H1 was more serious as it was Mr Jonathan Ng. But he was engaging.

And i didn't manage to buy PE shirt as there's only size 42 left:(

Lunch with Michelle G. at the usual chicken rice place at Bishan:) it's been such a long time since we went for lunch together. Okay. Maybe not that long cos we went to yakun kaya during the holidays when they had the DVC briefing thingy.

ciao. im off to my lala-land. but after finishing chem:(

and the kazhua went to shock it's inactive brain.

Jumping rooftops @ 9:07 PM

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

oh and tomorrow is the official first day of lessons for 2010!!

I wonder what would it be like...
with my brain not functioning well and all...

Jumping rooftops @ 11:42 PM

open house today was okay i guess.

successfully managed to kill time with yanru:D

handball was fun:D although we lost in the end. Played with IMBA team in the semi finals. We got 4th though:D The curse of 0925, never winning. haha.

milo truck is yummy! for some reason the milo always taste super nice from the truck.

And lil' bro's friend won the I-touch!! like omg?! But it's only 8GB! LOL.

there's a lot of homework to be done. well, technically they're those that are supposed to be completed:(

so wth am I doing here?

and the kazhua zoomed away.

Jumping rooftops @ 9:03 PM

Monday, January 11, 2010

it's freaking unfair.
double standards.

don't place your hopes on me
I wont make it.

Jumping rooftops @ 9:42 PM

Music can really affect one's mood a lot. Making me feel super emo right now. Perhaps i should stop listening to that type of songs. lol

and Janet posted that epic photo up on facebook! which is LOL and totally throw face.

my tutorials are not really done:( I'm sad.

and i really ran out of things to say here.

oh. Went out for lunch with Charles, Joshua, Johann, Yanru and Vichra at bishan S-11. then walked around J8 and shopped at Watsons!

that's all folks.

and the kazhua went to do SUPER POSITION!

Jumping rooftops @ 9:32 PM

Sunday, January 10, 2010

tomorrow's the start of a school year:D

i'm both looking forward and dreading it. It's gonna be full steam ahead and no life left.

btw, i got my new phone already. it's the same as Vichra. Wanted to get something else but Dad said it's nice and so yeap. But no complains here:D

it's gonna be a hectic week.

preparation for open house tmr, then open house on tues which hopefully i'm not involved in and then mugging for the blocks which can new be referred to as next week.

but on the bright side, i get to see 0925 tomorrow:D and michelle goh, and zhiyun:D although it's gonna be weird not seeing some familiar faces around and 0925 isn't quite the same as before:(

oh well. There's hair and skirt check tomorrow. LOL.

ciao:D

and the kazhua went to pack it's bag.

Jumping rooftops @ 9:47 PM

good night.
or rather it's good morning.

whatever it is, i'm off to my lala-land
if you're seeing this like now
i think it's time for you to go to your lala-land too

see you there:D

Jumping rooftops @ 3:02 AM

I wonder if it's too late
Should i go back and try to graduate
Life's better now than it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in

I'm awake here:D

Jumping rooftops @ 1:34 AM

Saturday, January 09, 2010

it's always fun when it's with the GB peeps:D

It was CCA open house today and it was filled with false advertising etc. Lol. But I got a new bear:D something similar to the prayer bear:D

Then went for lunch with Kim, Laura, Dorothy and Bernice to Ichiban Boshi at Novena. Cos laura treating us for helping out during camp:D

Then went back to school for PD training. Well, it's only helpers training today as we needed to learn the steps etc

Best part of the day was when we went for bubble tea behind PHS. A lot of joking around, poking fun and laughter:D

And homed:D

I learnt that i shouldn't take naps as I will turn into a grouchy person:(

And my ankle is swollen:( It hurts when I turn my feet and I cannot bend it:(

Well, as mentioned, today is physics and chem day so tata:D

and the kazhua went to do the usual never ending stuff.

Jumping rooftops @ 10:39 PM

I'm proud to say I'm done!
For chem holiday assignment only though.
Tomorrow is gonna be physics and chem Grp II day
And on Sun is Maths.
Then I guess I'm done.
for now.

night everyone
or perhaps it's already good morning:D

Jumping rooftops @ 3:18 AM

oh I forgotten to add.
I'm getting bitten by mozzies and it's irritating!
But can't seems to find it.

And...
Mozzie repellent doesn't work!

Jumping rooftops @ 2:07 AM

I'm still awake.
But I'm so tired I won't be surprised if i sleep here.
But I guess it's"punishment" for leaving work till so late.

I'm getting high.
Think it's because it's been quite a long time since I stayed up to do work.
The aftermath of slacking.
Dammit

Jumping rooftops @ 2:05 AM

it's Saturday and i didn't realise it until i went to check my msn.

And it's officially the end of the year end vacations. Who counts weekends cos weekends are forever holidays right?

Holidays are full of regrets normally. For example, I'm regretting not pacing my assignments such that I'm practically over my head right now. I regret not playing harder before the holiday actually starts. I regret not going out more and meeting friends.

I'm not done yet. countdown 2 more days. And tutorials are like on mon? so GG!!!

And there's GB tomorrow which means I have to wake up early. Wth am I still doing here?

Shoo.

and the kazhua went back to what it was doing.

Jumping rooftops @ 12:52 AM

Friday, January 08, 2010

I think my chem is screwed. Totally cannot do some questions today and had to keep bothering Vichra for help:( Really need to revise but there's no time now.

And I sprained my ankle while walking down the stairs. I don't really know/remember how i feel but it's either i slipped or missed a step. It's not hurting that bad but there's this throbbing:(

Still quite a bit left and I'm not going to give up now:D

tata. Ciaos and xoxo:D

and the kazhua went to bandage.

Jumping rooftops @ 10:36 PM

I'm still up trying to finish my work but apparently that's impossible.
I'm just distracted by anything and everything which is not good!

I want to sleep but I'm forcing myself to do work and I must at least complete maths before i can sleep! Then tomorrow will be CHEM!!! clearing subject by subject is like easier in a way.

And once again, i shall proclaim that I'm dead for blocks!!

Studying in school tomorrow:D

and the kazhua went to do vectors.

Jumping rooftops @ 12:33 AM

Thursday, January 07, 2010

Didn't go out to study today as Yanru has some stuff on in school and I guess taking a break is great as it's getting really tiring.

Still trying to finish the shitload of work that seems to never end.

All the best to me then.

and the kazhua went to burn them all.

Jumping rooftops @ 2:50 PM

pissed off ttm.
going to sleep.
so much for trying to do assignments.

Jumping rooftops @ 12:42 AM

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

Times a precious thing to waste, but friends are more precious

how true.
I'll always make time for you
will you?

Jumping rooftops @ 11:47 PM

I'm currently M.I.A
Mugging In action.

I guess it's not really mugging cos it's more of finishing up the work that was supposed to be done over the holidays and not on the last week. My bad.

Met YanRu and Vichra at AMK KFC today. Was supposed to go to J8 but change of plans as J8 do not have breakfast at KFC. So we practically studied at KFC the whole day. From eating breakfast to lunch and then homed at 5. Waffles are still the best IMO.

Walked around with Vichra at AMK hub after studying. But AMK hub is seriously boring ttm.

I'm gonna spend a lot this week I guess. gotta buy a watch:D Saw a nice one at city chain today and I guess that is it:D At least I'll save money on a planner cos dad brought one back which look decent for once. haha.

And I'm off to do work again. Shan't waste anymore time:D

and the kazhua is off.

Jumping rooftops @ 7:59 PM

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

The hardest things to say are
the words that mean the most.
So I'll bite my tongue til it bleeds
and I doubt you'll even know

So take this razor
sign your name across my wrists
so everyone will know
who left me like this

When everything feels like the movies,
you bleed just to know you're alive

Jumping rooftops @ 11:16 PM

Today isn't bad at all. At least I finished graphing and inequalities. But considered slow already cos made super careless mistakes along the way:s

Ate at mac for lunch. Double cheeseburger never fails to cheer me up and give me energy.

Went with Vichra to meet Greg and Chris for avatar! Apparently all of us were late except for Chris who thought he was going to be the late one. Then bought tix, then dinner at the food court. Zhengjie came and then AVATAR! haha. as usual we were late for it again la:s Always happens. lol

Avatar is a totally nice show although kinda giddy at some point of time due to super close up shots and fast action. Storyline wasn't too bad and the effects were really good! But it's like super long but i'm not complaining:D

Then homed:D And apparently, Chris and Greg are aliens from pandora and they are going to take over earth! lol. They're always like that. Even after surrogates the previous time:D

Well, I'm lazy and tired right now so I'm gonna sign off

Studying at J8 KFC and Cartel tomorrow:D Our eating plan:D

and the kazhua went to do work:)

Jumping rooftops @ 11:00 PM

that tonight's gonna be a bad night.
that tonight's gonna be a bad bad night.
I gotta feeling.

feeling utterly useless right now
like can't do anything right?
I bet I'll fail this time round.
Damn.

On a lighter note,
there's still time to fight.
Although chances that this is a losing battle is high.
After all, evil usually wins in reality right?

Jumping rooftops @ 12:35 AM

Monday, January 04, 2010

the best time to listen to radio:
when you're studying for exams
Don't have to worry about songs/entertainment
Muttons rocks:D

Jumping rooftops @ 9:16 PM

went to the living room and guess what i saw?
Dad watching cartoons.

Went to school early today to study and chiong assignments. It was fun. Turned out that Qihao, Joshua and Johann were there too so we studied together in 5-62. Talked about worms, crap (as in excrement) and other funny stuff like YanRu's blushing etc.

It's fun studying with them. I'm glad I've found friends I can study with:D

I'm lazy right now but there's still loads to be done. I think I'm the most lag of them all.

Guilty.

Ciao:D

I'm watching avatar tomorrow:D I know I'm super slow but better late than never. And it's like the epic movie of the year. haha.

and the kazhua went to do assignments.

Jumping rooftops @ 8:13 PM

Sunday, January 03, 2010

time can be squeezed
just like lemonade and orange juice
it's a matter whether you want to or not
and how important it is to you

I've said my piece and rest my case
I guess I just don't mean that much to you now

Jumping rooftops @ 11:09 PM

bored to death
shitload of work to do.
how is that possible?

Jumping rooftops @ 9:14 PM

A lot of people said "shit" is a bad word. So instead of shit, I shall say Dung. Or maybe feaces? Or excrement. But that's not the point is it?

And apparently, I've been using the word "irritating"/ "irritated" a lot too. Perhaps it's because the world is getting more irritating and I'm getting more irritated.

Yesterday was fun:D

Met some of the 0925 peeps at Somerset as we were going to the Suki Sushi @ Cineleisure for buffet lunch. It was nice. Nicer than Sakae actually although it's more ex. But the food and company was great:D Then went to the usual place to play pool and it was also fun! It was quite hilarious actually. Especially when I played with vichra 1 on 1. It was my last black ball, and i really didn'e expect it to enter any hole so i randomly called a hole. And...... lo and behold.... it went into a hole but not the one I wanted/called. Confused? Deal with it! lol. I'm not doing a good job explaining am I but.. who cares.

Then the rest of them went home and I went to meet Lin, Mich and Yu Ting at Just Acia. Crapped, passed present or rather just a card, received a present (thanks mich!!) and then went to plaza sing to walk around. Fox is still having sale. TEMPTED! Then homed cos the shops were all closing but before that, bought 2 DVDs. Up and Bedtime Stories!!!

Went home, watched up with mummy then slept at 2am++

Went out for lunch today with family except for lil bro though. He's like super AA (anti-social asshole). Lunch was really nice. Especially the desert. We ate at this chinese restaurant but it was affordable. Lol. My treat although mum paid first :s Then walked around at Sembawang Shopping Centre and then homed.

Watched bedtime stories as I'm doing some assignment. Dammit seriously. I'm like lagging behind a lot. 1 week to go and a who dung-load of assignments to do. EXCREMENT!

Well, gotta go. For once in my life I don't look forward to starting school. But then again, who am i kidding, since when have I been excited/ looking forward to going to school. LOL.

and the kazhua went to burn it all up.

Jumping rooftops @ 6:38 PM

Saturday, January 02, 2010

banged head on the table when trying to pick eraser up from the floor.
knock my knee on the bedpost.
cut my knee on a sharp side of the table.
cut my knee second time on the side of the table.
emptied pencil case while trying to pick it up.
lost the dear eraser.

and just when things can't get any worst...

spilled milo on my physics assignment!

ARGH! I'm going mad. even though i cleaned up the mess, I have to redo like 5 pages! WTF WTF WTF!!!!

Irritated to the max right now. Gonna sleep. Screw the assignments. I'm pissed.

trying to think of happy thoughts. GRRRRRR!!!!

and the kazhua went to sleep and recuperate.

Jumping rooftops @ 12:22 AM

Friday, January 01, 2010

crabs, curry and tofu is the best meal ever.

Dad bought butter crabs, fish head curry and tofu. And it's totally nice:D too bad bro is out but who cares, cos it's means one less person to fight with me for the pincer.

I really love dad a lot. I can see he's trying to "make up" for the blotched dinner plan but seriously there's no need to la. And I'm having this feeling that in the end he will pay for the dinner thingy. Lol. that's what he's good at. Sneaking away to pay for the meal.

anyway, tomorrow is gonna be a good good day. outing with some 0925 peeps for lunch to celebrate Jane's b'day and meeting Lin, Mich and Yu Ting at night for dinner (provided i still can eat):D

Love my saturdays:D

and the kazhua went to chiong maths

Jumping rooftops @ 9:01 PM

As usual, i leave assignments to the last minute which is totally killing me right now.

Karma bites people in the ass and so does assignments. Damn.

As usual, i'm regreting and I really wished I didn't procrastinate. too late to regret:(

dad and mum went out to tabao dinner. Dinner treat got called off cos dear little brother has his friends over and he's going out for dinner with them:( But at least i get to eat curry fish head for dinner:D Although, eating curry fish head with my throat like that is like suicide:s but who cares yeah?

So dinner treat by moi is like pushed back to Sunday since I'm going out tmr.

And the weirdest thing is that, I wanted to treat Sizzler since dad loves steak and I seriously think it's cheap la cos it's like free flow of soup, salad and ice cream? so $30++ to me is seriously okay and it's like not everyday or even every month or even every year that I give a treat right? so to me it's okay la. But dad thinks it's too ex:( So instead, he suggested going to SAFRA to makan at the western restaurant. Maybe I'll psycho them to go Sizzler instead. And I'm like craving for Sizzler la. Cos it's like eons since I've been there. Or rather, I only went there once? and that's like when I was young and dad brought us there to makan.

Enough of crapping I guess. I'm or rather I was diligently doing my physics. Yes yanru, I finally printed it out today. Together with all the assignments online:( supposed to be one question a day but I'm trying to reach 10 so i'll be done in 3 days:D

counting down, 17 more days to blocks. I'm scared :s

and the kazhua went back to being diligent.

Jumping rooftops @ 7:30 PM

I really don't know how I should be feeling right now. Watching fireworks from the room window. I remember blogging this about a year ago (hey it's 2010 now).

"Next new year eve, Z-minor will go watch fireworks together!!"

I guess that wish never came true. Watching fireworks made me think of many stuff like how last year we went to watch it at the bridge. Memories came flooding and I think I just turned emo.

I miss the old them a lot. And although some think it was a waste of time last year, I seriously enjoyed it a lot and really looked forward to going again.

But everyone has to wake up from their dreams sooner or later. I've come to realise that my "dream" has ended before it even started. No I haven't let go even though I've been psychoing myself and telling everyone that it's over and I've 'moved on' in a way but who am I kidding?

Perhaps it's the reason why the ring is still on a chain. LOL.

enough of emo-ing. I'm tired. I really think my emotional capacity is really limited. Feelings mixed up together is already killing me.

2010 has started with a not so good start but oh well, it's gonna get better and better. I know it will:D

and the kazhua went to emo.

Jumping rooftops @ 12:13 AM