Well screw it. fine. i don't quit. happy? it better be a yes.

clear things up. i sai i might not be able to go for farewell as i have immersion trip at the end of the year. see how first. as to the no bonds/attachment stuff. hello. will i have any attachment to the rest of them [except for one or 2]? you also not going back anymore for this year.

Rachel is damn lucky. at least she don't have to wear FULL U when she goes back(: oh well. i screwed myself ever since i chose GB over council at the beginning of the year. and it is too late for regrets. should have been like her. chose to go back as a HELPER and not a GB POST SEC GIRL.

yeah. i mean it when i said i rather retain for another year but the rationale? so we can like STEP DOWN together? and not like u step down and im like still there for another 1 year plus? and then lets see. do u have to be stucked in half u with PHS skirt next year? no right? for me? FULL U when the rest are wearing too. and half u plus skirt at normal meetings? get the point?

me quitting doesnt mean im giving up on our friendship. it is 2 different things altogether. u leaving already then i also leave? isnt that the same? if not why i think so long. don't believe ask rachel lah. i thought of quitting since quite long ago.

if i can go farewell of course i will go. why the hell will i not want to go?

there i've said all i want. happy? it better be a yes.

Jumping rooftops @ 10:21 PM

i pierced my ear today. like finally((: well, it was SCARY! im serious. but then again, yuting and rachel was there with me so they made it okay((:

went to AMK then went into and out of the shop again. as usual lah whenever i have the urge to go pierce my ear. then i said why not walk one round first before i finally pierce then they went and buy durian pancakes :x haha. then the best part, they saw their drama seniors and they were talking about stuff lah. haha. then kena pulled back to the shop. and yup. the process was done in lyk less than 10 minutes =.=

man the gun was as loud as usual. and it stings lyk hell. but the best part, i din run out with only one piercing so yeah to that. haha.

well today was fruitful! except for the part whereby i got last in class:x WTH! thanks to my 3 Us ARGH!

oh well.

Class BBq was fun. shall post about it when i get all the photos((: perhaps tmr?? haha.

and the kazhua went to makan(:

Jumping rooftops @ 7:23 PM

11.08pm.

finished my part but then again, have to wait for the rest of the parts to come in :x
God please let it be fast. really feel like sleeping now. my bed is screaming out to me!

guess im being random here. wish it will rain again.

anyway, shall go put them together now.

short term goal for now, finish by 1145 :x

i feel like a snowman stranded alone without anyone.. and yet you managed to find me.
the million dollar question is whether you will stay with me.

Jumping rooftops @ 11:04 PM

It's 10.00pm now and I'm still stuck with Written Report. At "better and more integrated public transport system" heading now. crapping isn't difficult. it is finding the freaking information to SUBSTANTIATE the statement we make. RAH. this is getting more and more gay each minute.

yes i will get to sleep. the million dollar question is at what time?

feel like ponning tomorrow but then, there is physics practical. rah.

short term goal for now, finish by 1045pm.

JIAYOU YOU DAMN KAZHUA!

Jumping rooftops @ 9:57 PM

8.02pm: I'm still stuck at the introduction part. God save me!

And where is everyone when i need them the most. Just kill me and get it done and over with :x

Jumping rooftops @ 7:59 PM

last night rain was a CHEAT! it poured like for less than half an hour? and then it became even hotter than before it had rained. what a loser. was expecting it to rain like mad cows and monkeys for at least an hour? so that at least i will have fallen asleep and won't feel the heat. man this is gay!

School today was fun at least. Mrs Boo is on course so our GP period was a free period for all! settled PART of the class bbq stuff. at least managed to confirm those who are going etc and at least 20+ ppl is confirm going. now the problematic part is ordering the food :x for once im not excited about food? hopefully still can order in time. after all, the bbq is on sat.

Physics lecture was not too bad. TRIED to follow the lecturer but apparently, it is the airtime of "LOST LT4 physics edition" again. i think im bound to retain this year. eek :x JOSEPH WHERE ARE YOU!

Chionged to the canteen for recess(: yeah. then went back to LT4 for PW lecture(:

Pw lecture is absolutely gay. was being high with yanyou in the Lecture theater. We were discussing about out project work and then were kinda high over there. especially the part about the poster she made which had a spelling error. "stuck" and "struck" yeah. and we asked Nicol who was sitting in front to find the mistake and he took a long time and still can't guess and finally got it when we told him.

Apparently he decided to take revenge on us by killing our braincells with a IQ question :x nah im kidding. he just turned around and asked us 1 question but it killed our braincells :x shall post the question tmr i guess. and i tink we were quite noisy in lecture just now. hmmm.

chinese was okay. and HOORAY! I BOTTOMED THE CLASS :x feeling gay right now. both the positive and negative side. there is one word to describe the story we are doing now. CHYM! and one word to describe the situation im in. BLUR!

right now i'm overloaded. physics and maths tutorial not done yet? then Project work written report also not done? it is 6.26 now and and and, i think i don't have to sleep tonight. and not to mention welfare meeting on wednesday at 5.15 and council GM on thur. suddenly i feel overloaded. my week is being fried AGAIN! this feeling is gay i tell you.

shall go chiong. i want to sleep tonight :x

and the kazhua pulled itself to go and do PW :s

Jumping rooftops @ 6:12 PM

Super bored now with nothing to do (except for tutorials and more tutorials) so i'll just post some random stuffs((: anyway, here are sm stuff on my study table^^


my beloved laptop(: although it acts lyk a pentium 1 computer but still...


and yeah. this is the mess on my table. wanted to clear it someday but i just kept procrastinating :x it's not dat messy... i tink :x

anyway moving on...


my ORANGE mouse! i remember the other time i went out with my dear mummy to find a new mouse and we seriously walked the whole of suntec city to find a orange mouse. haha. for once going out with my mummy is productive(:


yup. my council badge((: always on my table so i can find it in the morning.


my pig stress toy! from the name i guess u all can tell what it is used for. to squeeze throw, punch etc. when im am stressed, pissed or just have nothing better to do((: beats banging my head on the wall right?


RAISIN! yeah. im a glutton who can't stop munching. for me to munch when i have nothing to do or when im tired. hey raisins are energy food okay(: helps me to stay awake. pity there isn't much left in the tub. guess it is time to buy more(:



my LIFE SAVER! the wonder thing that keeps my immune system up and running and functioning. yeah. one tablet a day keeps the doc away. i hope. at least i don't really fall sick much but still... the other day bro was saying " jie, u good lorhs. when u don't feel lyk going school, just stop taking the vitamin c and then u fall sick then dun have to go school. i also want" =.= well, it is true in a way but then again, WHO THE HELL WANNA BE SICK?! with all the medicine u need to swallow each time and and and not to mention the stuff u cannot eat or drink when you are sick? i rather tackle school. although once in a while doesnt hurt much X)

there are actually many more interesting stuff on my table though. like this good luck charm which my fren gave. apparently she said it will help me get good results for o lvl but then...... haha. then there is also a figurine of a i diuno what. dunno whether it is a rhino? a hippo or an elephant. perhaps it is a rock.. hmmm. shall ask my dad. after all, he was the one who bought it((:

anyway.. shall go sleep now. i don't wanna be a panda tomorrow(: and i remember someone saying, your mood on monday determines your mood for the whole week or smth. i don't wanna be sleepy the whole week :x

school tmr. im feeling homesick now. and to think PHS is having a holiday tomorrow. ain't they lucky. i don't remember having so many holidays when i was still in PHS.

anyway, it has just started to rain like mad cows and monkeys and the wind is howling like a dog who think it's a wolf. the thunder is roaring like a lion (or maybe a tiger) and raindrops are falling peter piper.. i mean pitter patter on my window. and my bed is calling out to me. okay. i'm sounding damn gay right now.

anyway what i meant was that it is raining cats and dogs outside right now and the wind is strong and there is thunder and lightning and raindrops are hitting against my window and yeah. it is time for me to sleep. what a nice weather to sleep((: no need for air con or fan tonight i guess(:

and the kazhua went to ZZZZZZZ

Jumping rooftops @ 10:42 PM

Well, it's Sunday today tomorrow's gonna be monday and monday means that it is a new beginning of a new week and means 4 more days before the weekends when i can sleep :x

Anyway, LTC is over!! hooray to that man! yeah i know it is gonna be one week soon but I'm not slow okay. it is just that i did not really have the time and motivation to blog about it so yeah. It was kinda fun with all the kayaking and high elements although i get many bruises here and there and also the lack of sleep and not to mention getting burnt like nobody's business. But right now, i became almost normal again although the colour of my hand haven't really fade away though. Reminds me of the drill com period where i was also burnt. anyway, at least i passed my 1 star kayaking! so well it was worth it. not to mention the fun time i had capsizing and rescuing and playing games in the water. the bad part about LTC? my youth day was killed :x RAH!


My results are like screwed :x ALL my h2 are U? but kinda expected it though :x anyway, no use crying over spilled milk yah? must just try my best for class test, hmwk and promos. and i just found out promos is like 10 weeks away? WTH?! just finished mid years (in a way) and 10 weeks later poof it is gonna be promos? guess i seriously better wake up and work hard. if not retain and.......... i don't wanna think about it :x maybe I'll drop out and go poly? hmmm. think im the second last in class :x dammit. why din i study harder.....

anyway, was sick on Thursday :x to hell with my immune system.

oh yah. had a new maths teacher cos ms ng is on maternity leave. well, let's put it this way. if Mr Kooi is a fighter jet, he is a space shuttle X) my summation tutorial is only done until Q5 and the next day when i ask fangjing where he go thru till, he was at 11. well he straight away went through 11 so yeah. and we are supposed to finish summation by the next tutorial? kill me :x

my circular motion tutorial is also not done! rah. don't understand and don't know how to do. guess I'm screwed :x shall so try and understand and try to do the tutorial not. if not.... don't wanna think about it.

10 weeks. divide it by the number of subjects..... it is a scary thought indeed. and cannot just pass with an E or D? well. JUST KILL ME!

and the kazhua went to find the bottle of Dettol :x

Jumping rooftops @ 7:29 PM

finished Pw pt 2 today((: school was fun today although kinda low for the morning. cos of some stuff lah. but it became nomal pretty soon^^

then did pw written report :x it was okay i guess compared to ytd one. then at 140 met lichuen and lidan outside the hall for chinese oral. screw chinese oral lah.i screwed up badly and was having lyk cramps :x oh well. dist is gone!

then went waited for those doing oral and then went home together^^

came home and did physics. teacher wanna check file tmr :x damn. havent finish it yet. then chatted online.

im boed now and there is nothing to do): wish there was smth exciting and fun to do((: but then again, shall go finish up my physics if not tmr m DEAD!

tmr is a low day. getting back my papers. it no surprised that the teachers marked so fast. after all, what's there tomark in the first place with a half bank paper. just 0000000 all the way can lerhs :x oh well. SCREWED!

and the kazhua went to do up physics file(:

Jumping rooftops @ 10:10 PM

if YOU dare to write it, why delete it? there could only be 2 reasons(:

1. you are feeling GUILTY about it and REGRETED you actions(:
2. you suddenly realised the seriousness about it and became HUM JI! and is WORRIED.

Then again, another senario is that you realised the seriousness about your post and the became hum ji cos and then u felt guilty about it and u regreted it and thus leading to you deleting it((:

whatever it is, deleting the post will NOT change anything at all((:

attendence is good but SO WHAT!? it is the HEART that counts. you could be physically there but if ur soul is not there does it counts as good?? think about it yah((:

you complain about the way people treat you but have you ever look at the way you treat people and your attitude towards people?? please bear in mind the saying that when you point a finger at someone, at least 3 of your other finger is pointing back at you((:

well does punishinment change anything? well. from you ATTITUDE and POST, i guess the obvious ans is NO. but is it our fault that it does not change anything or help you learn? then why don't you suggest an alternative way then. there is always a listening ear for your opinions((:

Although i believe that quitting is not a good option but for you im willing to change that mindset^^ if u really cannot take it, 2 words for you. JUST QUIT! im serious((: i don't think of it as a lost. what's the point of lyk having someone there when they feel that they are mistreated and feel like qutting. NO POINT((:

so PLEASE stop complaining and PLEASE change your attitude. i know it is gonna be oh-so-hard but still.......

SERVANT LEADERSHIP!!

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im seriously pissed and dissapointed :x guess it is the final straw after so many times. I GIVE UP! well. not only on her but them as a whole. although there might be a shimmer of hope, but for now, it is an endless tunnel((:

shall not get too bothered about it now. after all, being bothers shows i care but i don't wanna care anymore in a way. wonder if it is possible to change **********.

for now, PW is my piority((:

and the kazhua went RAHH!

Jumping rooftops @ 8:41 PM