I passed my Physics test. 20/40. Well, I guess it's considered not too bad for the amount of effort I put into studying for it. But I guess it just goes to show that I have A LOT of revision to do.

P.E. yesterday was fun! Played badminton in the hall. 4v4 in the beginning then we changed to doubles as Mr Loo said it was erms dangerous to play 3v3 not to mention 4v4. Paired up with Dun Yan and we kinda got trashed by Hong Yi and Vichra as they were PRO! haha. seriously!!

Then stayed back in school for awhile and then homed.

Today wasn't too bad as well I guess. Physics seriously massacred my brain cells! To think that I spent time to recuperate them and they got killed just like that T.T But at least Mr Lee explained the concepts behind the questions well.

H1 lesson was canceled but we stayed behind in class to sorta chit chat. It was quite hilarious.

Stayed back in school with Michelle after that to do maths and GP. Seriously, I think I'm dead. Seriously dead. The graph looks super weird and stuff. Oh man. On a lighter note, the sandwich from the vending machine is nice! haha.

Well, shall get back to doing chem for now. Tomorrow is a SUPER long day and to think that the day after tomorrow is GP mid year. GG!!!!!!!!!!! And on a lighter note, at least GP is an afternoon paper :s

Well, bye for now((:

and the kazhua went to burn the damn chemistry tutorial to find the entalphy change of combustion

Jumping rooftops @ 11:12 PM

0925 Dear Ex-Chairman, Derek, rapping at circle line opening.
Saboed by Vichra and filmed by Min hui! haha.
Enjoy!

Jumping rooftops @ 8:36 PM

Today is absolutely AWESOME!

Although GP was boring in a way, it wasn't too bad I guess. At least it wasn't one of the worse lessons. On a happy note, I scored like 29.5 / 40 for my compre :D If only this was Mid-years. LOL. I'll fly to the moon. But seriously, I hope I don't screw up on Friday. Judging from the "suay" me, there is like a high chance something will go wrong and I'll screw up. Well moving away from GP...

Lectures weren't too bad too. Although I was kinda lost during Kinetic lecture but it was funny at some point of time. Like "parabola" and "since it is not a straight line, it implies that the line is not straight" and some other stuff too.

Physics was CLASSIC! I guess 0925 kinda got blacklisted by the teacher. lol. Before Physics officially started, we were passing around this note that said "there are footprints on the ceiling" it's actually a prank to trick people into looking up la. So we were all laughing when some of them looked up to see where those "footprints" were. haha. But the note got confiscated by the teacher and he kinda sat behind us during the whole lecture. Except for a few moments when he went away. But the joke was hilarious la! haha. And we passed around another note that asked where are we going to eat on Friday after GP exam. Well, the suggestions were funny.

The so called best one, cambodian restaurant. (fried scorpions) haha. no offence Vichra. But seriously, Physics is just a very nice time to pass notes around! haha.

Well, gotta go do chem and maths. have been slacking the entire day already! haha.

on a "sad" note, gonna get back physics lecture test 2 tmr:s must seriously pray hard that I will pass! :x pray for me yah?^^

and the kazhua went to draw more graphs((:

Jumping rooftops @ 7:53 PM

I passed maths lecture test. But it's not good at all la because most people scored above 20 for it. But I guess it's good enough for me because Series and Sequences just don't work for me.

And, my stamina totally sucks big time! It's like i realised it during PE on Friday. Just a few jumps (standing broad jumps) is enough to kill me and get me coughing like mad. Went to the hall to play badminton too. It was as tiring as jumping and stuff but it was fun(:

Physics tutorial on Friday wasn't too bad also. At least managed to understand some stuff out of the whole tutorial.

Workshop yesterday was "awkward". Don't know anyone at the table except for Charles. And as usual, the comments I got were that I'm too quiet. It's like every time I go for this type of leadership training or something, the comments are the SAME! "You're super quiet", "you're too quiet" but yeah. I guess THAT'S ME! lol. And it's true la. I normally don't talk much unless I know people there. haha. It just seems weird to me to be talking to a bunch of people who I don't even know. But, I guess it was okay in a way. Another workshop this Saturday. But at least this time, Shan is gonna be there with me. haha. So i guess it won't be that bad!

Went shopping at AMK with mum and dad today. Got a new running shoe and some random stuffs. It's about time I got a new shoe. Lol. But it's not orange :( haha. kinda colourful though. Well, it might not look that nice but mum and dad chose it and bought it for me so I LOVE IT! haha. And it's been quite a while since I went out during the weekends with mum and dad. It was nice(((:

Well, gotta go complete my tutorials((: I've finally caught up with what I missed!! Hurray!

4 more days to GP mid year. It's a do or die thing! haha. My goal for Mid year, make sure my parents don't have to meet Ms Ng. Not that she's bad or anything la. haha. That's my target! Jiayou!!

and the kazhua went to do the usual thing.

Jumping rooftops @ 8:15 PM

Blink 182 is back and better than ever man!!



will blog about stuff later on. Enjoy the vid man!

Jumping rooftops @ 6:39 PM

maths test wasn't easy at all la. double digit. it'll be enough! haha

investure today was a lil' indescribable. the mixed feelings i had about it all. but it was fun passing the paper around and seeing the little comments made. hahaha.

physics was fun too because if the vandalising on the notices. haha. it's amazing what 0925 can come up with. haha.

went to j8 with michelle after school. I guess it's our weekly routine now to go out for lunch every Wednesday as we both do not have any CCA and can go off early. haha. walked around j8 after that but we were both bored of the place already i guess.

had GB stuff tonight. meet janet and bernice and wenyan at yishun mrt. then met laura and went to some place in chong pang which was a church's office for the breifing on next week's coporal's camp. haha.

well, i guess all those are just a summary on today. haha. gotta go finish up on whatever I'm lagging in :s

and the kazhua went to catch up.

Jumping rooftops @ 10:31 PM

You are trapped in a room with nothing but a table .. NOT even a window !!
And the nearest help you can get is a town 50km away .. how are you gonna get out??

Rub your hands till they are sore (saw) .. saw the table into half .. 2 halves will make a whole(hole), climb out of the hole and shout til your voice is hoarse (horse), ride the horse to the town .. EASY

Once upon a time, there lived a green man in a green house which was in a green district. One day while he was bathing, a female friend of his came round to visit and rang the doorbell. Upon hearing his doorbell, the green man hastily wrapped a towel round himself and went to open the door. At that moment, he accidentally dropped his towel and his friend screamed in shock. Still screaming, she ran off and got knocked down when she dashed across a road. She died, the end.

What is the moral of the story?

Ans: NEVER cross the road when the green man is flashing.


If this :

-------------------->

Is superman,

What is this?

<-------------------

Ans:Superman returns!

One day, Batman and Superman had a race. In the end, Superman won. How come?

Ans:Cause when batman begins,Superman returns.

and the kazhua went to find Newton.

Jumping rooftops @ 11:31 PM

Today is indeed a shitty day. I'm back in school after 1 week (which is like a September or March holiday). Kinda felt disorientated although I don't really know why. Test was a case of the deja vu from last year. Don't think can pass. Oh well. It's the end that's important right? And I know I didn't prepare enough for it (I mean how to la. sick for a week).

I guess the most interesting thing that happened today was the conversation I had with my dad in the car when he sent me to school. We were talking about my future job and about going to uni. He was asking why I die die also want to be an engineer (when I was in the hospital and they wanted to put the drip on me, cos I'm scared of needles, the doctor was like talking and distracting me so I won't notice it and one of the topic was what I wanted to study next time). So I repeated the usual story about how I can't stand office jobs and business stuff and how much fun engineering is compared to those.

Then came the part. Dad asked "then why don't want to be doctor. Study hard and aim to get into medical school. Then next time you sick don't have to pay any doctor bills."

Well, I thought of being a doctor recently actually. Not dreaming that type but really thought hard about it and seriously considered turning into a geek just to make sure I get enough A's to get into medical school. But I guess I just cannot make it.

Why? Because I'm afraid of cadavers. To me, looking at someone or even something that is dead is already scary enough. That's why I'm not too fond of funerals with open casket. I normally try my very best to not look inside. That's why I freaked out (inside) during my grand-auntie's funeral. Dad knew I was afraid so at the wake, he never brought me inside but only let me pay my respect from "far" (far enough not to see the body). But the part came to the cremation service. In the service hall, the priest asked for everyone to pay their last respects to her and the person gave each of us a rose to lay on her casket. (if you do not know by know the coffin is those half open type.) So naturally, I was like trembling while I was queuing. And cutting the story short, i was seriously trembling when I laid the rose down and I got quite a shock and a bad scare when I saw my grand auntie. (it's hard to not see although my dad told me not to look if I'm afraid.)

Yeah. So I'm afraid of even looking at cadavers can you imagine me having to dissect them? And every one that goes through medical school has to go through that and I guess that's the very main reason I can never be a doctor. Another more obvious one is that I don't have the brains for it la. For that, my dad had nothing to say. Although I know that deep down inside, he wished I was smart, get A's and become a doctor.

Well, gotta get back to my studies now. There's alot to be done :[

and the kazhua went to study.

Jumping rooftops @ 9:15 PM

There's physics test tomorrow and I'm screwed. I seriously chose a bad time to fall sick. Just at the moment when I finally caught up. I guess things just fall apart again like last year. It was also during this period of time when I start screwing up.

Better go cram more stuff into my head. At least a double digit? that's my target.

I'm tired. Once again, i feel like giving up. I'm not strong. I'm not smart. I'm afraid. Afraid to fail once again. Afraid that it's going to be deja vu once again. Even though there's a saying that slow and steady wins the race, yes I'm slow. but I'm never steady in the first place. Feel like escaping from this all. From tomorrow's test, from school totally.

I feel alone. and that's the scariest part of it all.

and the kazhua went to cram.

Jumping rooftops @ 10:10 PM

Well, there you go. The cockroach is still alive and kicking over here.

In a nutshell, over these 4 days?

I puked alot as I can't get the phlegm out. No matter what I ate, I threw out the next instant.
I had high fever most of the time (40.9 was the highest it went) but thank God I didn't turn into a retard.
I went to TTSH and got put on a drip as I was dehydrated, having quite high fever and my pulse rate is high too (130). Did x-ray and stuff too.
Got discharged and came home with tonnes of medicine to be taken over the next few days.

It's like i had 1 whole week of MC. Dream come true? totally not. I think it's the beginning of my nightmares. I'm lagging behind in school work now. It's like it totally piled up over this week when I can't get any work done at all. Well, it's back to burning the midnight oil to complete stuff.

I don't know since when I've been getting this feeling of "not losing to others". I never had it before. Perhaps it's wasn't that dominant before but now it's like awakening inside of me. Hate feeling this way.

Well, gotta go and catch up with the school work. on the bright side, i still have tmr.

I'm gonna emerge stronger and better than before. if that's possible la. lol..

and the kazhua went to continue with chem.

Jumping rooftops @ 4:50 PM

Feeling super cold right now. And wrapping up like a dumpling does not help at all. Gotta wait for mum and dad to come home to see how. I think I finally caught a major flu bug. Or perhaps it's just a teeny bitsy weeny one which magnifies and mutate in me to be a serious one.

I seriously don't want to see a doctor but I guess mum or dad will drag me there. So here I am trying hard to to cough as everytime i cough, not matter how soft i try to do so, my lungs and chest will hurt damn badly. And I can't breathe too hard too. As it will trigger the cough. Argh. And my nose is like running away from me. Throat is like freaking sore too.

I think the flu bug finally caught up with me la. And it's attacking with full force. And the worst part of it all, I can't lie down and sleep without waking up in fright as the phlegm blocks my airway. Or turning without triggering a series of cough which make my lungs feels as though it is going to explode anytime.

Well, better pray hard that I get better before my mum comes home and examine me. Don't really want to miss school tmr as there is like Chemistry practical? and Malay lessons after school too :s But then, there's the killer PE tmr and it's gonna be tough as sat is the NAPFA test. which is another reason why i need to get better.

Vitamin C do not work. And I seriously need to get better soon by tonight!! Part of me wish that Mum and Dad will be home soon and yet part of me wish that they come home later. Urgh.

And snorlax... I can settle my own problems by myself! I dont need you to be my publicity manager!! if you dare to do something again, i swear I won't talk to you. You'll regret it.

Well, I guess I shall go sit at the sofa. It's the only way for me to "rest". Dear temperature. Please go down!! NOW!!

and the kazhua went to chase its brother off the sofa.

Jumping rooftops @ 5:10 PM

Although today is Mother's day, my mum has been like slogging her guts out the whole day. Well, because every mother's day. the whole family will come to my house to celebrate with my grandma. Well, I guess this year mother's day is supposed to be the most meaningful for my grandma. After all, it's the first time she is gathered after she was discharged.

Seeing my grandma these few days is quite "sad" in a way. She used to be very strong and active so much so I guess i've taken it for granted. Ever since she had that fall and got admitted into the hospital, it's like she don't want to move around anymore. The card sessions with her friends also stopped from then on. Now, she can't sleep at night,feel restless and is always thinking too much. but the thing that is scaring me the most is that she is getting more and more forgetful. I don't want her to become like my other grandma in Malaysia who is senile.

But I guess my mum enjoyed herself today? After all, she is the type that cannot really sit still much (unless she is really tired).

accidently saw the medical bills today. dad did not want to let me see it. got quite a shock as i didn't expect all those medicine and consultations will cost that much. Is it worth it taking those medicines when I don't feel any different? They don't even help at all. I'm still sick at the end of the day. And the bill does not stop there. It's going on and on until I don't know when. Shuck. Why must I be weak?

I'm looking forward to seoul garden with Vichra, dunya, yanru and the rest of the TMB group((: Supposed to go tmr but cos of the upcoming tests, i guess things just weren't that feasible. So postponed to holidays maybe? Anyway, I think it's going to be alot of fun eating together again. Sure come up with alot of crappy stuff again.

To salvage or not to salvage. I'm starting to get a clearer head now. Perhaps time will heal? LOL?! Then again, perhaps it is because I saw and talked to the "shrimp" today. And he changed the "candy" to a much "sweeter" one. and Instead of 3, there's 5 now. And I'm feeling "high".

Well, i gotta go meet my target of finishing graphing A by tonight. I sorta wasted the weekend moping away. lol.

and the kazhua went to take the candies.

Jumping rooftops @ 8:35 PM

Does it mean that school is NOT important to me? Well, i can tell you this. School has never been more important to me ever!! You don't know what's it's like to have a shitload of expectations on you. People naturally expect you to do well just because you are a retainee and you have been through 1 year more than the rest. Teachers expect you to do well and are always watching you. My parents also expect me to get good results this year and i cannot disappoint them again this year. Family? You should see their reaction when they found out I'm retaining.

So is school not important for me? The last time we jammed. When I was rushing down from school immediately after lessons. Where were you? Sleeping?

and we already said we were jamming since last week. I even turned down my classmates who wanted to go out yesterday!! your groupmates are not free on weekends. so you are free on friday la?

Let's see. I have EVERY REASON to leave yesterday. Because I dare you all to say that you all put in more effort than me all this while.

Concert tickets do not just drop from the sky!! even though it was so called "shared" jocelyn, dorothy and some others, Let me tell you this in your face. out of the $128, I paid $100 plus. GETTIT!!! And I still remember the reaction of you when you received it. The word "oh". I didn't say it then but let me tell you this. I was fucking dissapointed. That $100 bucks came from the money i got from work and i saved it painstakingly. Joshua's guitar. I paid 80 bucks for it. Jamming fees? How many time have I top up the balance or so called lend money cos someone don't have enough!? So what if I'm the one with more pocket money? And how come you all have money to get a new phone go eat at restaurants etc. but don't have the money to go jamming or buy his freaking guitar! And everytime I'm the one who is BROKE!!

Money matters aside, count the number of times you all are late? and the late thing is getting worst!!! Everytime there is jamming, I'll put aside everything else just for it. I'll even chose jamming over outings with other friends.

What do you think I am? Even though I never once said my unhappiness does it mean I'm okay with it. Every time i tell myself to forget it. But you all just brush it aside and treat it as though nothing has happen. Late once. Sorry. Late twice another sorry. I have heard so many sorries all this while. speaking the truth, your sorries have become just a normal word to me. there is no value in it anymore. because to you all, sorry has just become the word to say when you are late. You don't really mean it. If you are really sorry, you would have tried your best to not be late and make it up somehow.

Yesterday was seriously the last straw. Bucause I seriously feel I'm the only one putting my best foot forward and try to make things work. You don't know what's it's like sitting at the road side waiting everytime there's jamming. I had enough!! Even though I'm naive and stuff and don't mind waiting, you all can't do this to me everytime. It's has become a ritual!! jamming on friday. let's say 5.30 then at 5.15 or smth, the sms like "i will be late" starts coming in. then jam late and normally i'll top up the balance after it all.

Perhaps I need time to cool down and forget about it all. Perhaps you all may think I'm being freaking unreasonable and not understanding at all. But seriously, put yourselves into my shoes. I've tolerated it long enough but it doesn't mean that I have to tolerate it any longer.

You don't know what I'm going through right now. Just because you all are in your lala land it means I'm in mine too. You don't even know that I'm not okay. You all don't know anything.

I don't know how long the situation is gonna be but for now, let's take a break. Since school is so important to you such that even jamming like once in a blue moon is less impt than it, take it as time for you to get your studies on track. And since the other you have no money for now, let's take it as time for you to build up your funds for future jamming.

I've said enough. If the 2 of you think I'm an unreasonable bastard and what I've said is not true at all, well, perhaps just push all the blame on me.

Jumping rooftops @ 7:47 PM

with a loud *SNAP* what's left of my sanity (which is a super thin thread) snapped.

I don't get it. Why is it I'm the only one who make an effort not to be late. I'm not asking people to be early. I'm only asking you to be on time. Is it asking too much?

But perhaps it's my fault too. Over-reaction?

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but i guess overall today was a fun day. Filming was FUN! and my idol is Wolverine. *shing*
perhaps i might post it up if i get the videos.

Physics was even more fun. My Chow brought toys for us to play with((:

PE was not too bad i guess. But TIRING!

Maths. I scraped through my recurrence test which is NOT good.

Break was time to take "reference" form other's work and learn from them.

All in all, Perhaps things would have been better if I counted to 1000. W.W.J.D. ?

and the kazhua went back to it's BELOVED tutorials.

Jumping rooftops @ 10:03 PM

Treat me as an invisible being and I'm going to do the same to you. I guess this morning is the final straw. Guess what, I'm beginning to think I get left out for a simple reason. Because to you all, I'm just this invisible being that you'll remember only when you all have no one else.

Resulotion from now on? I'm going to ignore them. I'm not going to block you all on MSN or anything but if I just don't reply, I guess it just simply means that I just don't want to talk to you. It's that simple. And don't expect me to smile at you all or anything. Cause seriously, I won't.

I'm sick and tired of the 2 face-ness of you people and it's been like that since last year.

I give up.

Goodbye forever.

Jumping rooftops @ 1:17 PM

My house smells like a pot of claypot rice((:

PohLoo (My cousin) was frying fish and she sorta forgotten about it and it turned into a piece of charcoal. lol. So the claypot rice smell a.k.a. burnt smell is there. It's not too bad I guess. Reminds me of the time when i left the bread in the toaster and forgotten all about it. The effect was ALMOST the same I guess. And the time when Mum forgotten then she put the tea to boil and the whole tea DRIED UP!! lol. Accidents happen I guess(:

Another funny thing that happened today, I accidentally called my Dad's hand phone at 4am in the morning. LOL! I normally sleep with the phone near me and I forgotten to lock the keypad and I guess I hit the redial button or something. Then dear Dad came to the room and ask me "did you just called me?" lol. Luckily the last number in the call list was Dad. I can't imagine what will happen if it was some other person or even worst snorlax. Lol. I guess it will be quite hilarious.

I'm just caught a NEVER ENDING flu bug. Either that, it's a flu bug that REFUSE TO DIE! Have been like having flu for quite awhile already. At first thought I recovered but in the end, I chased after it and managed to captured it back. It's quite funny actually. Today when I had runny nose, I wished I had blocked nose. When my nose is blocked, I wish it was running! lol. Human mentality is weird. Why don't we ever wish for like the normal situation? Like no flu at all? I guess the theory is the same. When you're having diarrhea, you wish you are having constipation. When you having constipation, You'll wish you are having diarrhea. Weird eh.

I finally ate Subway again today((: Went to Toa Payoh with Michelle after school today. At first wanted to eat Burger King as we thought there wasn't any Subway at Toa Payoh. Then she remembered that there's one at the HDB Hub. I think we sort of decided to eat Subway ever since the $5.90 meal came out. haha. I guess next week menu will be Burger King then or perhaps chicken rice. Then went to Shaw Plaza with her to collect something for her NYAA and then back to Toa Payoh and then home to the claypot!

Well, today wasn't that bad I guess. Although I was like super tired the whole day!! Especially during the lectures. Well, although there is nothing to be handed in tomorrow, I shall go do the work that needs to be handed in on Friday.

I seriously absolutely cannot wait for Friday to come soon!! haha. JAMMING!! and then it's gonna be a long weekend((:

Counting down, 23 more days to the 1st MYE!! Honour roll!! If that's possible la. haha. No more U's S's E's D's for me. I'm AIMING (note the word AIM is used^^) to get at least a C for all.

Ciao!!

and the kazhua went to aim for the bulls eye

Jumping rooftops @ 8:53 PM

Well... I've officially wasted the whole day (or night rather).

I didn't do any work at all. Unless you count clearing my file and doing filing is work. feeling super guilty and uneasy right now so I guess I shall make this a short one.

School wasn't as bad as i expected. It was rather fun. To think that I was intending to play hookie. But I won't la. because today is Monday A which means there's Chemistry practical and if I missed it, I'll have to make up for it which will be super O.O for me.

Well, better go continue with MATHS!!! I seriously don't know how i manage to accumulate so much undone work last year. Looking back, it was "impossible".

On a happy note, I got 29/50 for my "first" GP essay((((((: Although not the highest or one of the highest in class but I'm happy. Perhaps staying back a year was a right path. At least I'm not screwed or anything and I don't really get the feeling of failing anymore. It's more of like getting a C and above? haha.

and the kazhua went to prove that P(n) is true for all values of n such that n>1

Jumping rooftops @ 9:59 PM

I know I'm slow to update this but...

Chelsea vs Barcelona 0-0

Well, this match is a case of me sitting on the fence because I support both. Barcelona have the oh-so-dashing Messi and Chelsea is like my favourite team!

Enough of UEFA.

I guess I really must control my mood more. It's really stupid of me to get all caught up over something when the people involved don't feel anything or perhaps they didn't even notice it at all. Was actually blog hopping around to "catch up" with the so called "friends" lives and BOOM i realized I actually got left out once again. And I dived right back to the core of the Earth.

Well, I'm (not) over it now. I mean come on. Everyone get's their own fair share of being left out don't they? (Or is it just only me?) One fine day I'm going to the one who leave them out of stuff right? (Yeah I'm SO GONNA do that to them next time.) They might not even know that they caused you to be upset or feel left out. (Because they don't really give a damn.) Just forgive them (but i never forget.. let's see that day, and the other fine day and....) Get a life! (You mean murder them?)

It's like arguing with myself. Totally. That one spark of insanity. I gotta take a break soon. Wish I had swine flu.

well...

Ladies and gentlemen, we've once again come to the segment of the day which is not a day whereby Weili has to go and finish up her homework which is actually not hers as they are given and set by the teachers which make it the teacher's homework. Thanks for spending 5 minutes or so reading this blog post which is not a blog post as it does not tell what happened today or on other days but instead is just random words from the dictionary jumbled up by the brain which is not a brain of Weili whom currently is not Weili too.

Confused? Deal with it. It's what I've been feeling the whole day.

and the kazhua went to find the pigs in Mexico.

Jumping rooftops @ 9:50 PM