Went to school but did not go for lessons. maths they reteaching binomial so din go. slacked outside the LT4 with glande and the OG guys at first. then they went to mac to makan breakfast. me and glande stayed back. tried to do sudoku in the papers. haha. was stucked but suddenly managed to solve it. lol. the guys came back with our mac!! haha. mac is yummy! but forgot to ask them to change it to milo. lol slipped our minds.

then went to play tennis! i still suck at it btu at least i din miss too many today. din get to play much cos i was the BALL PICKER! lol. lyk running around picking up the tennis balls and passing them to the guys. so lame lah. still rmb i hit the ball outside school ytd. lol. so paiseh lah. can hit until outside school. and glande call my serves the "thunder ball" cos i hit it very hard. lol. but keep out.

wanted to pon the CCA talk. actually we were in the process of ponning. but then, the PE teachers came to catch us so got caught lah. damn suay. lol. but we get caught as a group. me, glande, alvin, yuanhao, and one more marist guy. nicol and another marist guy was out buying bubble tea. went up to the hall and was made to sit in the middle. lol. me and glande was thinking what the worst punishment could be. and guess wad! after the talk we were let off after 1 sentence and the teacher din even scolded us. lol. kinda lame. the funniest part was that, we sms nicol and his fren to dun come back and yet, THEY CAME BACK! lol. lyk suicide lah. as in thye could lyk stay out then wun get caught but they came back. too jiang yi qi lerhs bah. lol.

after that chionged back to PHS for gospel breifing. i seriously got nuthin to say lah. many screw up and still got some other stuff. im fierce?? lol. maybe((: after that had a de-breifing with the commitee. i still stand by wad i said. although gospel camp is a fun camp, there is still a line that camper cannot cross. and that is dicipline. there has to be a standard of dicipline in the boys and girls and seniors ought to tell them when they cross the line. i know they are sec 1s lah but still, it's no excuse bah.

went to find ms lim next. talked to her abt stuff that was happening in GB. and i seriously mean wad i said. i dunno wad to do. got some shocking revelation. why why why! she should have her reasons bah. haiz.

then went to amk hub with sean, janet and bernice. sean went to buy movie tickets for leap years to watch with his sister. then after that went to mac to makan. din want to eat mac at first but oh well. lol. talked alot and sean had his laughing fit. all of us kinda dissapointed lah. haiz. then went home sweet home.

just saw the freaking timetable and IT SUCKS!! i want my last time timetable.. the S2C one. at least. but heard that other classes the timetable is damn pack.. maybe i rather have that.. cos can go home early..haha. breaks in btw are good.. haha.. if din do tutorials can chiong and do them. HHAhAH.. and got time to play basketball and tennis.

im gonna miss OG21. things are moving on lerhs. new classes etc. haiz. miss those PAE days!! time seriously waits for no one. mich is in YJ . so is emilyn. the whole OG is kinda spiltted into diff classes. very few of us have someone in the OG in the same class. so im lucky in a way. CT teacher is the CLEP teacher!! lol. lin lao shi!! haha.. i cant pon chi lerhs. lol. actually i cant pon any lessons. oh well. time for the real stressful life now.

jamming tmr. im feeling gay! oh well.. gtg print tabs now. if not im dead tmr.

the song is kinda stuck in my head right now. nicol sent it. kinda nice song and the lyrics is kinda nice too. lol.

Stop Crying YOur Heart Out - Oasis

Hold up
hold on
don't be scared
you'll never change whats been and gone

may your smile (may your smile)
shine on (shine on)
don't be scared (don't be scared)
your destiny may keep you warm

cos all of the stars
are fading away
just try not to worry
you'll see them some day
take what you need
and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out

get up (get up)
come on (come on)
why're you scared? (i'm not scared)
you'll never change whats been and gone

cos all of the
stars are fading away
just try not to worry
you'll see them some day
take what you need
and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out

cos all of the stars
are fading away
just try not to worry
you'll see them some day
take what you need
and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out

we're all of us stars
we're fading away
just try not to worry
you'll see us some day
just take what you need
and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out
stop crying your heart out
stop crying your heart out

nice song((:

and the kazhua went to print the tabs

Jumping rooftops @ 8:43 PM

today was FUN!!

was kinda late while meeting yuting to go sku together. lol. and we had an experience of a lifetime!! feeling wad it is lyk taking a bus in 1980s. lol. im being drama here. lol.. the aircon broke down. and when we got off the bus, woo.. aircon!! the air outside was cooler then the inside. haha.

PW was a lil sianz at first but bridging the gap was FUN! lol. im a TEDDY BEAR! which is good cos relationships are impt to me but is not good cos it is too soft and will get bullied by SHARKS!! lol.. goals are not impt.. kinda true. i must aim to be an OWL. get rid of my teddy bear personality!! must get christopher to teach me. lol he was the ONLY SHARK in the OG!! haha. and he said everytime he did the test confirm get shark!! and for DISC test will get D!! haha..

then the researching one was also very nice. kinda funny at point of times. then BREAK!! ate vegetarian today. then after that went to find mr Pereira Pio for the SC nomination thingy. dunno if i should summit it. still thinking.... then went to LT1. it was DAMN BORING! lol. wanted to sleep lerhs. after that played tennis with glande and christopher. kinda fun. lol. we [glande and me] kena owned. lol. i can serve!! haha. din go for the next talk though. me and glande gave up!! christopher went cos he got AVA duty..

play ABC awhile then did nuthin much. went to get the form back frm mr pereira. then went back to BB court. din play this time. haha. CCA bazzarr. found rachel. talk to her abt some stuffs that was pissing me off. must relax.. lol.

joke of the day: Stop and STAND by Christopher Chiam((:
christopher : hey nicol u got the song stop and STAND? send me?
nicol: =.= stop and STARE lah!
and so everyone burst out laughing!!

stop and stand. LMAO! haha.. joke of the century!! tmr gonna stand with CT ppl already. 0811. hopefully it will be fun!! gospel breifing tmr!! wheee!! dunno wad to entertain them lehs. haha. shall improvise!! lol.. so many things to settle for the camp!! rahhh...

in a flash it is coming to march. what have i done so far? play? pon lessons?? been playing around for 2 mths!! lol.. must be serious lerhs((:

and the kazhua went to STOP AND STAND^^

Jumping rooftops @ 8:08 PM

my brain contains only Gospel stuff now. SERIOUSLY!

Monday:
got GC frm rachel cos i havent got mine yet. then GC workshop was fun! lol. playing around with the calculator!! haha. so cool can't wait to download SUPER MARIO into the GC and play. wahha. i know another person in NY! haha.. chuan wen. jing wen's new friend!! after school went J8 first. supposed to meet jocelyn there to get the stuffs but in the end din. so only met sean. walked around trying to find the chop and then in the end also din buy. lol. so went back for meeting. roy and jocelyn were there already. felt weird going back in NY uniform. it just feels weird. oh well.

meeting was okay in a way. sean came and sit in. settles our PEPSI stuff and discussed abt some stuffs. underground church changed to another version but now changed back. unrealistic? oh well.

TODAY:
lessons were boring.. i seriously dun understand physics at all. the teacher is talking to himself? maybe cos my heart and brain was flying off to somewhere else. lol. went for H2 chem instead. haha. H2 chem seriously is better? damn CLEP. but CLEP is fun in a way. today we learnt abt "du fu" apparently a well known poet. i heard of him lah.. lol. din noe some phrases was quoted by him. oh well. im in 0811. same as nicol, lijuan and lidan!! so cool((: at least im not alone!! whahahah.

after school went J8. supposed to lunch with sean, greg YC and sm others. felt damn werid cos they all BB one then i only girl down there. but in the end cos ms lim gonna have meeting then chionged back to PHS din eat lunch): found out that ms lim wasn't the teacher in charge for gospel -.- it is ms ng!! lol. kinda funny. so chiong back in a way for nuthin.

went for dinner with logs commitee at LJS at yishun. lol. got mingzhe, joel, sean, jozzy and glenden. glenden left early ccos he still have to go khatib mac for his drill camp meeting. then hear the log talked and ate dinner lorhs. jozzy was late as usual. haha. over slept. haha.. wad dead hungry cos din eat anything in the day. seriously fasted the whole day. haha. Logs commitee so fun. at least they dun really have to crack their head lyk us. lol.

haiz.. plannign planning and more planning. i lyk no life. after sku, planning. at night planning. programme programme programme. so many things to do so little time. OMG!! God please help me yah. grant me strength and wisdom to plan and carry out my duty well.

gtg sleep. if not tmr sleep in the talk.. PQ talk tmr. one word sianZ!!!

and the kazhua went to bed

Jumping rooftops @ 10:23 PM

Friday:
woke up late): so did not meet yuting dad fetched again. ponned maths because they teaching binomial then lyk no point?? lol. i ponned lessons again. haha. ate mixed bowl. and NCC seriously bought 4 sets of uniform. lol. at least not as jialat as nicol who seriously bought 5. rich kids are lyk that. then went to library to slack with NCC and glande. talked about the OG shirt design and the "model ans" for the application form. OG shirt rocks!! once a merlion always a merlion. haha. H2 physics is BORING! maybe it is cause the topic itself is sianz. and our minds wern't on the lesson at all. and the funny part is that, the teacher talked so much and wad he is actually trying to say is that...... THE GRADIENT OF THE TEANGENT OF ANY POINT OF THE GRAPH IS THE INSTANTEOUS VELOCITY AT THAT POINT OF TIME. so simple and yet he made it sound so complicate giving alot of crap. lol. then CLEP. and found out that. H3 is an ADDITIONAL SUBJECT not an upgrade. im in deep shit lah. bt shall chiong for it. fo my best. came home and chionged the PEPSI for the programme for gospel camp. think until i brain dead and seriously planned until 1.30 am. broke record. lol. im not a sleepy pig anymore.

after school chiong back to PHS for camp meeting. thought i was late and yet..... alas..... the meeting havent start -.- and it did not start until 2.30++ double -.- so many things not done. ahhhh. the commitee meeting kinda depressing at the end. but oh well. especially the shirt design thingy.. too feminine?? i seriously think it is okay. perhaps they are just too "macho" *ahem. after that went J8 with jocelyn and shareen. to makan and look for sm inspiration as to wad those "macho" guys will lyk on their shirt. and seriously, we found NUTHING! as in all the design got lyk alot of words, wings or either that is just plain or stripped polo tees. kinda no life. monsters are nice. oh well.

did not go swimming in the end. cos once again i have proved that kazhuas are damn blur and have S.T.M. i left my shoebag [ containing my swimming stuff] in my dearest daddy car in the morning. WOW~

Saturday:
slacked at home the whole day. no GB meeting cos they have to go out and sell carnival tickets. so lame lah. was damn looking forward to going for GB meeting this week. and the devotion. lol. did nuthin much. shunrong came over cos we going out the next day. crapped with yuanhao cos apparently no one online to play dota with him. lol. yuan hao is weird. got a girl said he is cute and yet he din lyk it and his reaction was "WTF!!!" haha. and sommore said 'cute' is not good. seriously lah. what have guys got against "cuteness"??? too feminine again?? or are they seriously too macho. cute is good. ahaha. and "shuai" is for tall guys. not for yuanhao. lol. im evil!!

Sunday a.k.a. TODAY!:
went to watch jumper. dad's airbase book 2 halls in the Grand Cathay. so dad, weilun and suni(shunrong) watched ah long while me and mummy watched JUMPER! ans seriously, Jumper rocks lah. so cool. he get to travel around the world. and the sports car was so cool, and and and, dun have to worry about traffic jams. haha. i seriously pity the library. lol.. always get flooded. haha. then went to makan and P.S. Mahattan Fish Market. lol. getting hooked on the place. the fish is seriously damn great and huge. lol. even dad said it was good. haha. i wanna go there and eat again!! then went carefour to shop groceries. groceries shopping is damn fun!! haha. but did not buy alot of stuff though. weilun and suni went to play arcade. the candy machine. lol.so that's where they went. haha. then came home and slacked. lol.

chionging PEPSI now. haiz. im still stucked. no ideas. lol. oh well. seriously hope it will all be okay. gonna start to prepare the stuff for the games. whee. haha.. must chiong now. lol.

wearing nanyang uniform tmr. lol. already paka with NCC and glande. haha. it's gonna be so much fun((: at least the OM will not try to confiscate my fone anymore. lol.

and the kazhua went PROGRAMMES!!

Jumping rooftops @ 9:27 PM

Sunday:
went to pasir ris park to recki for gospel. girls side shareen couldn't comebut the boys side only samuel and deryk came. sad case. it was fun recki-ing with them althought kena bullied by the "camp commandant". he good lah. bully me. no one will save him. i'll make sure of that lol. the most funny part was samuel got stucked in the CHILDREN spider web and couldn't come down or go up! jocelyn managed to go thru. then deryk was trying ot help him come down etc. and everyone was playing at hte playground lyk little kids. samuel was the one who played the most. even went down the slide with another girl. haha. CHILDISH! lol. and i seriously cannot climb the spiderweb gave up nt even halfway. lol. then walked alot. and thought of the gamesto play there((: the suay thing is that... THERE IS NO FREAKING SUN!! and i was hoping to get sunburn again. haha. i noe it increase my risk of getting skin cancer but oh well.. i shall risk it. haha. hopefully the sec 1 will have a fun time. after all, we seriously plan until we all pulled out our "antennas" lol.. or rather hair.

Monday:
Last day of PAE. damn sad lah. din go for lessons. ponned the whole day and played basketball with the same bunch of ppl on fri. very fun!! although me and emilyn kena trashed by the guys. think 30 plus to 0. lol. juinteng play cheat!! haha. oh well. expected lah.. 4 vs 2. and is 2 girls vs 4 guys. if they lose then WOAH! after that went PLAZA SING for OG lunch. kinda lyk our last gathering. makan at sm restaurant that is smth lyk fish and co bt not fish and co. mahattan fish market or smth. yuanhao seriously cannot keep secrets. lol. after that went walk walk around. can tell the guys are sian already. lol. then NCC and junyi was the model to teat on the nail polish glande and emilyn thye all were trying at the face shop. kinda funny. especially since NCC fingernails were multi coloured with all sorts of colours. pink, yellow green etc. haha. then the rest went back to school and i went home.

Tuesday:
woke up damn early cos handphone rang. 6 smses frm ppl and 1 frm M.O.E. damn scared to open the msg. what if i cant enter nanyang. in the end opened it and got into nanyang. the "congrats" part is damn lame! cos sm ppl got into their 8 choice also got congrats infront??? lol. WEIRD! met yuting and rachel and chiang lin to go swimming AGAIN! haha. swimming rocks.. good chance to get sunburn!! and i seriously turn black. lol. got the mark. then met emilyn and felicia. our outing to suntec to SHOP! but din bring much cash. opps. walked around first frm carrefour, to face shop, to clothes but din buy anything. then went makan and laughed alot. felicia left early so me and emilyn went to walk around more. was looking for a pouch for camp and normal use. saw a DAMN NICE deuter bag but the PRICE is also damn nice. 128 bucks! and that is after discount o.o i want a new deuter bag!

Wednesday:
first day of JAE! one word to describe it : BORING!
the feeloing is weird. the atmosphere is familiar yet so unfamiliar. with ppl gone and new ppl inside and the OG splitted into mainly 2 and all over the place, and nt say dat high OGL. I WANT PAE OG21!! rah. but then again, its only the first day and perhaps things will be better in future. hopefully. games were okay. went home with rach. very long din go home with her since we taking diff bus and diff gate. then she accompany me to eat at S-11. lol. talked alot(: very long lerhs. lol. being in diff stream altogether, taking totally diff subjects except for maybe math. miss those days. haiz.

TODAY (THURSDAY):
at least the PAE feeling is back. having combined lectures today. GP was FUN! surprisingly. haha. used to think that GP is boring. but today one was fun. although still felt lyk sleeping cos did not have enough sleep ytd night. ponned PE! okay i noe i said before that i will not pon anymore since it is JAE but it is only PE! lol. makaned with rach, chiang lin, yuting and their frens. the PHS feeling is back. for just that moment when we were talking and eating. but it is still different without michelle around. somehow it feels weird. really miss her. then went to buy uniform. the person dunno how to measure. and NYJC shirts are cool. they alreayd come with the rubber so we dun need to go put string. lol. but the skirt is seriously damn freaking long. haha. must alter alot in a way. love the sku uniform. but one thing, it is thick. gonna be so damn hot. PE shirt out of stock ): must wait very long before got stock. gonna buy GC tmr. and it cost 199 BUCKS! omg lahl. maybe i should buy the 150 bucks one the black one but the bookshop auntie said it is very slow. the 199 bucks one is 9 times faster. lol. can play supermario and textris on it!! haha. and if spoilt, hang, died can have a one for one exchange. haha. so cool. looking forward to having a GC! lol. CHEM was okay. din feel lyk sleeping.

DAMN! i cannot take chemical engineering in NUS anymore. WTF!! cos seriously need H2 chem, physics and maths. and i cannot take 4 H2. my chem is a freaking H1. GONE!! maybe now i shall aim for aerospace engineering in NTU. perhaps i seriously should have gone into poly. at least still have chance to go into chemical engineering. in NYJC is seriously NO CHANCE! damn the CLEP. lessons are fun but my dream is gone. then again, there are many other branches of engineering. lol. petroleum engineer is what i wanna be! haha. or aerospace engineering. but if i get all A i will go study law! haha. im dreaming again.. LOL.

gospel camp meeting tmr!! cant wait but must print out stuffs etc. and seriously must settle the cluedo stuff!! omgomgomg. 3 more weeks to camp!! WHEE! cant wait. it is gonna be so fun and exciting. being the red army((: lalala.

hooked on "save you" by simple plan. cool song! and the tuen is nice. so is the guitar!! haha. simple plan rocks((: after all the first song Z-minor jammed was PERFECT by SIMPLE PLAN! miss those day. oh yah! gonna go jamming NEXT FRI!! WHEE. cant wait for it also. wahaha. havent jammed with joshua for a long time. ADVENTURE!! ATTACK!! BEAUTIFUL LIE!! NEVER!! PERFECT!! OMGOMGOMG!!

swimming tmr too! yippie! haha. but tmr go swimming confirm no sun one. cos evening already. lyk on fri! no sun. lol. no tan at all. lol. im gonna be DARK! my fone is seriously GG. the keypad is getting worst each day. lol. but i dun want to change fone. lol. im seriously weird. lol. at least still can type but seriously must press very hard! lol.

Save You - Simple Plan

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You’ll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I won’t give up till it’s over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
It’s Just skins and bones
There’s nothing left to take
No matter what I do I can’t make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it’s over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I’ll pick you up of the ground
If you lose faith in you
I’ll give you checkup on through

Tell me you won't give up cause I’ll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I’ll be there for you

If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

I wish I could save you
I want you to know
I wish I could save you

and the kazhua's heart is still burning.

Jumping rooftops @ 7:53 PM

friday:
ponned all lessons. went sku, then ate, play basketball and a lil tennis. lol. played with emilyn and the guys. then played "dragonball" very funny. shan't mention too much abt the game here. kena sunburn. damn painful. lol. but it was fun playing basketball. veyr long din play already. kinda sucks at it now. lol. glande said must see my mood then can shoot. lol. then slacked around. run abit, cheered abit. watched glande and the guys race and she WON! lol. then went swimming with rach and lin. called rach and her "gang" kept confusing me. lol. wad gand leader etc. lol. then played alot. and swam alot. many laps. i want to go swimming again and get sunburnt. lol.

saturday:
TODAY WAS FUN! meet janet, jocelyn and shareen at bishan. THEY ALL LATE. apparently they slept at 2 plus ytd cause they were busy chatting abt gospel camp. haha. i AM a SLEEPY PIG ( or that's wad gay-gory call me) so i knocked early. lol. ate noodles at S-11. then bought bubble tea and went back to sku for meeting. thought we were late but in the end, only anna gerksin and theressa were there. the guys were late as usual. lol. they thought it was supposed to be 2pm. LOL. then meeting is called to order. lol. programmes took the most time as usual and like always. cause there is alot of questions and things to settle. shant write too much here in case sec 1s are reading it. then spoil their fun. lol. CAMP SHIRT IS ORANGE~ yay-ness. haha. at first green but they changed it to orange. WHOOT~ going recki tmr. whaha. bring back memories. and thinking of playing the same game as before. whaha. the sec 1 will bound to enjoy gosple camp alot. futhermore, the grp names are NICE! haha. although sean din think so. and perhaps zhengjie wanted the carebear name. LOL. then played "scissors paper stone" with sean who was sitting across. lol. won alot of time. lost a few time. lol. bernice was asking me how old i am. and i lyk used my finger to count. lol. made them laughed out loud. I AM CHILDISH! haha.

after that went to bai nian. very fun. laughed alot but left early with wenyan she need to go to her ah ma house and i need to go out. din go jamming in the end. dun want and scared to get pranked AGAIN! lol.

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

and the kazhua went "it's a HOPELESS LOVE"

Jumping rooftops @ 10:07 PM

today valentine day was DAMN GREAT!

school was fun distributing the cookies that me, emilyn, glande and felicia baked ytd. yes that was what we were doing yesterday. BAKING COOKIES FOR PEEPS! haha. and the guys seriously bought all the girls flowers!! kinda cool.

ponned all lessons today. only lyk went for maths lecture?? lol. then slacked with emilyn most of the time. felicia went for lesson. helped royston replied his letter to his SA (secret amirer). then NCC tried to resurect royston flowers. quite funny the conversation we were having. abt their schools and many many more. lol. i pity royston's flower.


then crashed econs lecture. lol. kinda funny. the teacher keep talking abt wad valentine day, roses damn ex etc. kinda funny. then after econs slacked around with emilyn. felicia went to look for her fren. stayed at the basketball court to "see guys play basketball" kinda lame and we were SIAN! lol. but lyk waiting for them .

the most suay thing. went to J8 sakae and found out that TODAY NO BUFFET! wtf can? just because it is valentines. damn suay. not fated. then went pasta mania makan. the pasta got GARLIC! omg. lol. i have never ate so much garlic in my whole life. lol. but it is okay bah. din finish in the end.

then the guys went back home. left me and felicia and emilyn. went on a SHOPPING SPREE! so fun. bought 3 identical HP pouch, pooh keychain. walked around buy stuff and then went MOS drink milk tea. and craped alot. walked around J8 many times looking for a shirt to buy. but lyk no design nice. lol. so we just had the pouch and keychain. lol. must go shopping again. soon!

love the yellow tulip. lol. HOPELESS LOVE! maybe i should give up. maybe not. who noes? God knows! oh well. shall ponder over it later. simple plan album and shirt. lol. i still rpefer angels and airwaves. although simople plan the guitar riffs sounds cool and everything.

Jumping rooftops @ 8:24 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE!!

i think nicol is right. simple plan just owned Angels and Airwaves with their new album. the songs are damn nice. perhaps i should go buy the CD. lol. then again. im kinda low in cash right now. even though CNY is still around but i dun get to spend my ang bao money. in a way. lol. saving it up for a guitar. fri fri fri. then i will have money already.

then again, Angels and Airwaves still rock cos there is tom delonge((: one of my fav guitarist. although i still prefer him to sing punk rock. oh well. AVA is still the best band.. even though simple plan album is great. who call simple plan no tom delonge. whahaa.

tmr is valentines day. today ne, emilyn, felicia and glande prepared smth for the peeps. shant blog too much abt it now. shall blog abt it tmr. heard the guys bought flowers for the girls. whahaa. so they won't be "cursed for 3 lifes, forever no girlfriend etc". kinda funny.

the deadline is coming. tmr in fact. chiang lin will know wad im talking about. lol. and once again, i will extent the deadline till who knows when. perhaps next valentine. lol. then again. it may be good to give up now.

recki on fri. at pasir ris park. damn cool. but have to pon CLEP. kinda sad lah. i love CLEP lessons. lol. looking forward to gospel camp 2008. hopefully the sec 1 will find it fun and exciting and get to noe more about God. dat's the purpose of the camp in the first place. getting to know about God. so must pray hard.

This is the best feeling
I hope that it will stay
And I'll hold on to it
Don't waste your time on me you're already
THE VOICE INSIDE MY HEAD.

So much for my happy ending

Jumping rooftops @ 10:24 PM

school was fun today. playing angels and mortals. at first lyk no letter kinda sianz. but in the end got a letter frm my angel! heard sm OGM played prank on nicol and alvin. kinda funny. especially when nicol look so trumatised in a way. the funniest letter was alfred and haikal one. emilyn help write and both pretended to be a girl. kinda funny.

after school went to AMK hub with emilyn, christopher, alfred, glende, dennis (glande cous) royston and junyi. supposed to watch the 3 plus show there but the slot was lyk cancled. damn suay! then everyone lyk no mood to watch lerhs. in the end went mac to makan but only ate sundae. crap there and talked alot. then christopher emilyn and me went to eng wah to check for slot. then too early. nicol they all cannot make it in time. so in the end went J8. bought tickets and stoned around. looking at books and stuff in popular. then watched KUNG FU DUNK!

for once i think jay chou is good looking. lol. the show was damn nice. especially the basketball part. and it is also damn funny. i think better then ah long although i havent watched ah long yet. oh well.

gonna go recki on fri. pasir ris park. hmmm. must find out how to get there. dun feel lyk doing the GP project. lol. alot of ppl not doing. but best not to get into trouble larhs. pae is ending in a week time. i dun want PAE to end. have this not so good feeling that i will drop out of JC and enrol into poly. dunno why. is JC for me? i seriously dunno.

i miss the distorted sound of the guitar blasting throught the amp. JAMMING is my PASSION!

and the kazhua went jamming^^

Jumping rooftops @ 8:28 PM

i love going back to malaysia. when reached there the rest were there already. kinda fun except for the dog part when my cous dog kept barking at me.. collected ang baos and then went out to makota with cous. lol. kinda funny cos in the car all teenagers in a way cos one of my cous in the car is only 11. tzemin drove ( they get to take licience at 18 and she is 19) .. then went there to shop but din buy anything in the end. not even ben and jerry.

went back for dinner. by the time we went back, no more veggies anymore): so kinda sad lah. lol. early noe we ate first. haha. then watched movie together. and crapped. went for supper cause din eat enough in a way.

SATURDAY! the best day cos got lion dance(: surprisingly this year the lion dance ppl came super early. lol. around 930?? haha. and my bro they all sleeping over at my other auntie house had to chiong back but the ppl were nice enough to go to another house first before coming back. and the best part of it all.. THE LION IS ORANGE IN COLOUR! lol. was playing guessing the colour with my cous and i won! lol. cos i randomly said orange. lol. the nicest lion i have seen in my whole life. lol. the performancfe was nice too. took alot of pics of the performance and my cous were lyk "how come so many pictures?" lol.. becaue it is orange. lol. if it was other colours im sure there wun be dat many haha. and at the end before they left, i get to hole the lion head. which was damn heavy. lol.. wonder how they managed to hold it up so long. but then again, they are guys. lol.

then slacked around, look at the ladies in the house get ready for lunch out at a restaurant. trim eyebrows, put make-up! lol. kinda funny. haha. and took many many pictures!! food was nice and lao yu sheng was the best. lol.. we seriously are messy eaters((:

today! back to school. dunno wad is wrong with me. last year even though im sick i will still wanna go sku. but this year? i "pretend" to be sick to not go sku. upside down. lessons were sianz. LT4 was cold as usual, chi was fun again although i catched no ball at first. guessing the meaning is fun! then ponned chem as usual. and went home.

saw emilyn and the rest at the basketball court. they wanted to catch "ah long" lol. then went to j8 with emilyn and pakmeng. in the end no tickets.damn suay and the next one at 4 then cannot cos emilyn need to go tuition. so din watched it in the end. and the most suay thing, my fone no batt. called janet halfway no batt and went dead. oh well.

wanted to go home. but got down at YCK instead and went PHS! lol. dunno for wad also. then saw dorothy and crapped with her. caused her to not study.. then waited for janet. lol.. crapped more and talked to shareen. went to northpoint to makan KFC. lol. then walk walk, crap crap and then went home. kinda fun.. miss the old days. lol.. the one we slack around in sku or anywhere else and not go home until 6 plus even 7. but it will never be the same again. damn.

havent touch my tutorials for a long long time. kinda weird cos lyk lost touch lerhs. must go so later and print out my lecture notes. and chiong the GP project. haiz. so many things to do and it is only PAE! i dun want PAE to end. no more ponning, slacking and not doing tutorials. carefree days over! i wished i had chose to go poly.

and the kazhua went dead.

Jumping rooftops @ 6:34 PM

this is the day, the lunar new year once again. can say it was fun in a way. chatting with my cousins and eating together and laughing together and the red packets. although red packets aren't all there is to CNY. went to cous house around 12. then ate play talk laugh MAHJONG!

and seriously. maybe i dun have the chinese look. when james found out i was taking H2 chi. he was lyk shock. kinda funny. perhaps cause they dun hear me speaking chinese often. oh well. my chinese is good((:

i won 3 times out of lyk 20 plus times for mahjong if im not wrong. which is sianz. but at least better then suni. he lost all the way. haha. the biggest winner was my bro. once he got the hang of it. luckily din play for money. if not all my ang bao money gone(:

gonna go to malaysia tmr. feeling damn excited abt it. after all i dun get to see my grandma dat often and so does my cous. this is lyk the once a year thing and mostly the only time i get to see some of them so yah. make the best out of it. and the best part, all of them are gonna be there((: and i will get to see the lion dance this year too. and furthermore, IT WILL BE A FULL HOUSE! haha. can't wait. melaka((:

things are getting worst between us. and im lost. perhaps it is cause i dun really hang out with them in sku anymore. the ONLY time i see them is in the morning?? and perhaps around the school in between periods. we are just freaking drifting away. and now there is a conflict/ quarrel/ "war" wad so ever? and i seriously dun really catch the ball what it is abt or what is going on. and in a way, when they talk abt stuff, i seriously do nt understand. cause i dun really hang out with them anymore? perhaps. the "us", "they", "ytd" blah blah blah. i seriously dun understand. collective terms. i used to understand but now i don't. spend more time with them. is it possible? guess it is just me again. being in a TOTALLY DIFFERENT stream and having a funny combi.

who is the "bad guy" and who is the "victim"? no freaking comments. cause seriously i am in no position to judge for I DUNNO WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON! so please fill me in ( and i seriously mean fill me in by telling me EVERYTHING frm the BEGGINING and not the SUMMARY) , or don't bother to tell me what is going on for i wash my hands off it and rest my case.

will the 3 animals survive extinction? this is a question i ask myself again and again. JANET! we do our best yah! LET JUMP BAND OR FORM A NEW BAND! lol.. just kidding.. but even though we form a new band but Z-minor still will continue yarhs. lol. GOSPEL CAMP BAND! lol

i hate the new year. HATE IT! i wish it could all go back to last year. why why why. i wish it was last year. with janet and i, the 5 of us, most of all JANET! wah sianz. seriously. the time we spent just staying back in sku after sku just to crap. staying behind during GB. being high together. those were the carefree days.

just read janet blog. found out she is in melaka now! OMG! haha.. we both are fated.. JANET IM ALSO GOING TO MELAKA TMR!! UNTIL SUNDAY!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!! haha.. IT IS FATE I TELL YOU FATE!! lol. oh well.. let's see if we can meet. scarly we distant relatives! lol.. cannot be in a way. haha. perhaps we will meet each other on the streets! haha. dat is if i go out lah.. lol.. i miss you miss you.

and the kazhua went JANET!!

Jumping rooftops @ 10:19 PM

PONNED SCHOOL TODAY(: haha. dun think anyone in OG 21 went though. except for NCC cos he AVA. wonder who else went.

went over to cous house to prepare for tuan yuan fan. but dunno why year after year lyk the feeling not there anymore. nt as fun as before or as exciting. and tuan yuan fan is not exactly tuan yuan fan. the whole family do not eat together. and there isn't really much talking. maybe as u grow up the feelings u have for CNY changes.

did sm last minute clearing and cleaning. lol. vacummed the house, folded the clothes, put away things. then again, the CNY mood is nt here yet. and there is absolutely nuthin to watch on TV.

JAMMING! my passion? oh well. nets is in malaysia. gonna miss her. nt hearing her crap for 4 days. lol. and when she is back im away.. haha.. not fated.

im not giving up. no im not. NO NO NO! NEVER NEVER NEVER(:

and the kazhua went to slack

Jumping rooftops @ 10:21 PM

today was a fun fun FUN day(:

woke up lyk 0705 today.. dad drove me down but in the end still was late. lol. oh well.

ponned physics lecture. standing outside LT4 debating to pon or not. with glande trying to ask us to "go thru the door to heaven" lol. in the end we ponned and went to buy ice-cream. then went back for CT which was talk cock session. then ponned maths. opps. im being a ponner again.

went to J8 subway. shared the foot long sandwich with emilyn. then talked cock and see the rest play game. stare into snother person eyes and cannot laugh. nicol fren (donovan) damn pro. renzhi also. lol. see them cannot tahan. keep laughing. act cute etc. lol. then watched the house. seriously, horror movies are not for me. quite scared during the show. kinda gross too. and the plot was lame.

night programme CANCLED! rah. just as i got home they told me cancled. kinda wtf. made me chiong home for nothing.

to my dear lobster: don't think too much okay(: must be a good good student. get good good results, and get into a good good course(:

to YOUR MAJESTY: RELAC! don;t think too much also. im sure she din mean it.

and the kazhua went "BAKA"

Jumping rooftops @ 9:45 PM

PE was fun. reminded me of the time combined PD went to sentosa for sm good friday frisbee tornament and to celebrate phillip birthday. the game was exactly the same. dunno where is the frisbee now. in the BB room perhaps(:

then crapped with OG. abt the PE teacher who supposedly is gay. i guess it is true. all good looking guys are either taken or gay. haha. and made fun of nicol again. with his 2 gay partners.

there is only one word to describe chem lecture : 乱
totally don't understand wad the teacher was saying. oh well. luckily im only taking it as H1 in JAE. ponned chem seminar again. lol. must kick the habit of ponning chem seminar.

Chi lit rocks. today had riddles. some were easy amd some were hard. the fun ones were the pictures ones. and the best part was that we had to come up with our own riddles. our's was 吴大嫂， 猜个字。try guessing. it is easy(:

no GB for a period of time cos this week CNY the next week common test. OMG! phs carnival coming(: 1 mth. seriously if we gonna perform, we should start jamming the songs now. but see hw first bah(:

Everytime i look for you the sun goes down
So I'll hang on, never let go.
I dug this pain into my chest
And the reason is You

and the kazhua went X3

Jumping rooftops @ 7:08 PM

YESTERDAY:
reached sku at 0755. supposed to meet janet and rachel for the devotion practice. in the end, the 2 of them were late. lol. and i thought i will be the one who is late. haha. then sang the songs, zao xia a few times and seriously, the GB guitar is so nice. haha. ADVENTURE! lol. kept playing that song on it. lol.

then drill. taught the sec3s and 4s with wenyan. kinda funny cause i called the sec 3s sec 2s. lol. 1 mths already.. should get used to it. haha. maybe cause they dun look lyk sec 3 at all bah. haha. but it was fun. then after drill, saw the water guns. lol me and janet cant resist to play with them. got very wet and was still very wet during devotion. ps beng kwee nt very happy. opps.

then during games(: lol.. now is my turn to splash people. whaha. but everyone think the game was disgusting. lol.. kinda true lah.. water plus flour.lol.. DOUGH! haha. but can tell they all had fun. after GB had gospel camp meeting. we still need to plan alot of stuff and think through the minor details. hopefully it can be a fun camp. must keep finger crossed.

then met Emilyn to go together to hougang for BBQ! BBQ rocks. lol. at first we couldn't find the BBQ pit. lol. nicol said wad it was destroyed. well NICOL IS BLIND although that is because they din wear specs and im also blind in a way. but he and his fren walked around the park 2 times finding the place. lol. then started fire. okay mine was kinda failure. dunno why halfway no fire at all. laughed alot bah. and cooked the food. lol. the chicken was uncooked. lol. and no one dared to test the first dish which was the otah. haha. surprisingly, it is the girls cooking except for junyi and chris aka NCC. nicol and the rest were playing soccer and cards. stayed till quite late bah. only reached home around 12. and that is considering that we cabbed home. i want more BBQ(:

Today:
SPRING CLEANING THE HOUSE! i din noe the house can contain so many things. lol. especially the room. lol. and mom is baking my favourite cookie(: haha. but i can;t eat them yet. cos still sore throat. damn. oh well. i shall eat it on CNY. and talking abt CNY, even though it is coming lyk on thur.. i dun have any feeling at all. im NUMB. lol. lyk no CNY mood. haha. oh well. perhaps when the time come i will feel it. can't wait to go back malaysia on fri. especially cause can meet all of my cousins again(:

tmr school. omg. i seriously dun wanna go for chem seminars ever again. lol. see how first. perhaps i shall jump group. since my grp is lyk no longer around or smth. see how first bah. lol. i want to go JAMMING soon! lol. but maybe have to wait until after chinese new year. lol. see how bah(:

and the kazhua went back to spring clean

Jumping rooftops @ 2:02 PM

love songs sucks and fairytales aren't true
happy endings hollywood is not for me and you

no i did not get rejected. i don't have the courage to admit it. but i guess i deserve this pain. i should not have let myself got into this in the first place. im going to get over him. with help from *****. at least im not living in denial anymore. give up. dat's wad ppl are saying. and i shall. and this time i seriously mean it. i hope. im being emo again. will i live to regret. hopefully not.

BBQ tmr. but im not in a hyped up mood. nt because i dun lyk it but after just now, i seriously felt lyk my heart was wrenched out and torn into 2. no i did not cry. although i almost did. maybe it is cause those there never really saw me cry before. it's the feeling of hopelessness. the light at the end of the tunnel dissapeared at that very moment.

i wish i could say " aiyah, oh well." but it was a nice feeling. and feelings vanish..

hopefully by tmr it will be the happy me and not the emo me. GB & BBQ. wad more could i wish for. maybe jamming. but for now, im contented.

and the kazhua went to sew its heart back together

Jumping rooftops @ 7:51 PM