Service learning vs. Manual labour.

It's quite fun actually. More fun than I thought it would be. Get to know more people through these 4 days of doing CIP. There was nice breakfast EVERYDAY!! And the activities was much better compared to just slacking around in school.

Day 1: Nature walk! The guide was quite funny and he is really nice. Showed us a lot of plants and how to survive in the jungle. lol. Walked to Hort park, then forest walk, then henderson waves!! took a bus back to harbour front and went to Harbourfront centre to eat Yoshi and then to vivo to walk around.

Day 2: Gardening. We were the "nice" people who chose to do gardening. lol. but actually, it was because we saw there were dark clouds coming and the weather forecast says 60% chance of rain!! haha. true enough, we only did awhile and there was lightning risk so yeap. haha. watched the people paint the mural. Then went to eat pasta mania with Zhiyun, Michelle, Liting and 2 other guys from their class.

Day 3: Mural painting. We weren' t that nice to do gardening again. lol. it's hard painting the mural. the paint keep dripping and all. haha. and people like me particularly who do not have any artistic talent to speak of can only help to touch up in a way. lol. Ate mac after that and collected alot of the monopoly thingy. We're all beginning to think it's all a scam and publicity stunt.

Day 4 a.k.a. today: painted the railings. got TANNED! hurray to that. Zhiyun thought that I would finally get sunburn as i was quite red but as usual, i turned normal in about 2 hours? lol. but got a lil darker!! which is good!!

Not planning to turn up in school tmr. There is nothing for me tmr! So kinda pointless to just go for morning assembly right? YES.

2 weeks of unofficial holidays for then. Gonna be working:D although it's only a day. and perhaps i'll finally get a new wallet!! hurray to that. And maybe a capo if there's moolahs leftover. haha.

Sadly, my guitarr amp is for some reason refusing to operate in other words... SPOILED! like WTF?!?!?! Which means i need to repair it, therefore meaning, less moolahs to spend :(

Argh. why is everything of mine breaking apart now? lol. Perhaps I''m violent. haha.

I need to kill time!!! 2 weeks is a bore. Especially since everyone is busy with either A levels or PW :((

Oh well. Perhaps a trip to the library to find more book. Finished reading those i borrowed the other day.

I NEED A JOB!!

and the kazhua went to find something to do

Jumping rooftops @ 8:42 PM

All in all,

You're just a LIAR.

Period.

Jumping rooftops @ 6:32 PM

I'm happy:D

Although my H1 subjects dropped quite abit and i failed geog which is expected, my H2 subjects inproved. Expecially Chem :)

Summary:

General paper : D
Chemistry: B
Maths: B
Physics: C
Geography: S

But I kinda expected to fail geog i guess. Haha. but I could have gotten lower. Seriously. But I guess it's good enough for me. haha. And perhaps my overall would be higher when CA is added in. but then again, hopefully my CA don't pull my chem grade down :s

And once again, I've proved to be an average student. haha. totally no A at all!! haha.

Although it's true that I could have gotten higher if i studied harder but for now it's enough. lol.

looking forward to my wonderful weekend :D

and the kazhua went to find things to do.

Jumping rooftops @ 8:45 PM

Dark Side:
No hope of getting good results for H1 geog tmr since it's kinda screwed.

Bright side:
I didn't do the question on earthquake if not i'll get lower than what I might actually get.

Dark Side:
Physics paper 1 is screwed and so is paper 2 thanks to data response.

Bright Side:
paper 1 constitutes to 20% of the overall? But still keeping fingers crossed.

Dark Side:
Careless mistakes for maths and "not thinking enough"

Bright side:
83% of the cohort passed in term of overall.

Dark side:
My GP essay and AQ is screwed.

Bright side:
hopefully the compre can pull me up? and the 40% CA.

Dark side:
My chemistry grade is like humpty dumpty which can fall off the wall anytime.

Bright side:
Might be able to pass? hopefully.


I guess to me, the worst part of examinations is not sitting for it. It is getting back the results for the exam. Because, so many things can happen. Especially for people like me who's middle name is "careless". Feel like watching movie tmr. Or maybe swimming if the weather is good (or rather hot) :D

And it'll be totally rad if there'll still be 27 ppl in 0925 next year.


and the kazhua went to pray very hard.

Jumping rooftops @ 10:14 PM

AFRAID


I'm afraid. Terribly.


Afraid of failing
Afraid of losing everything
Afraid of not making it through
Afraid of situations getting worst
Afraid of not being able to even be in 0925
Afraid of not meeting expectations of others
Afraid of facing reality
Afraid of looking at the answers
Afraid of going to litespeed
Afraid of problems
Afraid of going to school
Afraid of attending lessons
Afraid of the whole idea of examinations and results
Afraid of disappointing others
Afraid of all the what ifs
Afraid of letting go
Afraid of holding on
Afraid of regrets
Afraid of the endless worst case scenarios


Strangely, the stuff that I was emo-ing about seems trivial compared to what's happening now. Someone out there (or perhaps up there) please save me. Perhaps you'll find me emo-ing at that coffee beans. Although I think there's only one person who knows which coffee bean is it and this time round, there won't be anyone there with me.


It's empty.

and the kazhua auto shut down.

Jumping rooftops @ 9:28 PM

I feel as though I have 3 hearts. One which is my actual one, another in the toe which I accidentally kicked against the damn dining table, and the other my head. They are throbbing in unison right now :(

Feel as though I'm having this hangover but rest assured, I did not drink. It can't be exhaustion cos I've been resting a lot during the weekend. Although it may be because I slept quite late yesterday and did not have a good night rest thanks to crazy people singing at the void deck in the middle of the night.

Chemistry today was relatively okay in a way. Although "careless" was my middle name. I careless quite a few erms questions for MCQ. But I hope the rest is correct though. LOL. I guess I'll be getting around 20+ haha. hopefully MORE!

It's the final physics paper tomorrow!! It'll mark the end of my mugging for this whole year! And it'll be celebration galore tomorrow onwards:D Honour roll seems like millions of light years away. Not that I'm actually aiming for it but it doesn't hurt to dream right? haha. 30 is the target after all!!

I really wish my headache will go away. I don't want to take a nap and sleep it off cause I know I'll feel even worst when i wake up later and there's a chance I'll enter my "dark side". haha. normally it's either I sleep a lot or don't sleep at all. Btw, listening to "peaceful" and classical music don't make it go away. Neither does the "noisy" music as classified by dearest mummy. And I'm an anti-painkillers kind of person so say no to Panadol too.

The feeling right now is as though there's this woodpecker pecking at my head. And my 2nd heart is still beating.

Perhaps a 10min nap will help. But then again, it's bound to turn into a 4 hour plus sleep. lol.

Oh well. One more paper, one more day, one last chance. haha. Jiayou!

and the kazhua went to find a catapult to shoot the woodpecker.

Jumping rooftops @ 3:08 PM

2 more papers to go but i feel as though I've got nothing left. And the 2 will determine if i pass or fail. haha. in a way.

Perhaps planning all the post-exam activities too early is not helpful at all! haha.

Reminds me of O-levels when the MCQ are left but the study mood is no longer there. haha. Athough there is still written paper left for this case.

Study, study and more study. I wonder if there is more to a student life than the heavy amount of studying. But I guess it's been what my life is about these weeks. And yet, when I think of the next year to come (provided i pass which i must), it make me dread it even more. I'm kinda sick and tired of studying. Perhaps it is why JC is supposed to be a 2 year thing but I have no regrets:D I guess I'll only regret at this point of time if i was in J2. lol. Not that retaining is a good thing either.

On another bright side, i get to enjoy concession price when i travel by MRT and eat student meals for another year! Hurray to that:D

I really don't want to study anymore but i know I must cos I'm seriously not smart. Others don't study but will still pass but for me, if i don't study, sure fail with sinking colours. Just for another 3 days or so, I shall not give up. 3 days!

and the kazhua went to stock up on red bull for the 3 days

Jumping rooftops @ 9:49 PM

My life is a total joke. I'm not kidding. There are instances where I didn't know to laugh, to cry or to stone in shock.

Like, hearing your dear grandma use words like KNNBCCB, KNN, CB, etc when she was trying to explain what she saw at the bus stop a few days ago. Imagine this:
Grandma (in chinese + hainanese + hokkein (for the !@#$):
the youngsters nowadays mouth very bad! when I was at the bus stop the other day, got this boy talking to his friend and all the words came out. *re-enact scene* KNNBCCB! KNNBCCB! wah scolding you know, keep saying KNNBCCB KNNBCCB! so naughty you know? Then I stare and he was like"sorry auntie sorry auntie" then the other day weilun (my lil bro) playing com that time, wah. CB ah, KNN! hokkien so nice to use. own dialect don't want to learn go learn hokkien......
Me: *stand in shock* O.O and thinking to self "did grandma just said all that?"
Grandma : *talking normally* what do you want to eat for dinner?

and when I went to KFC and ordered student meal, the counter staff asked "you're still a student?" and when he saw the EZ-link card he was like =.= okay. For once someone don't think I'm a student! ahaha. Okay the other time when I was buying alcohol they also didn't check my IC.

I guess the most traumatizing one is still my grandma. LOL. shocker of my life! Oh well.

I'm wide awake right now! I guess my body clock is screwed up!

round up for exams this week, maths was like harder than the mock paper! Physics was a RUSH! didn't have enough time! lol. AND I CARELESS which make it worst :( enough of the sad things. lol

Looking forward to 13th and 14th! and 15th too:D WAHA! Gaga-ness!

and the*idiot* is sending stupid songs to remind me.


and I've been like hearing it on radio!?!?! IRRITATING! But yeah. I know you love me that's why you send it. lol. BTW, the idiot is a FEMALE friend of mine so don't go thinking it's a guy or something! lol.

well, back to whack the books! and my nose is itchy. with a sneeze caught in between the nose. Want to sneeze but cannot sneeze. the feeling is worst than constipation! Why do I always face this sorta problems. lol. Hate my nose!

Ciaos human lifeforms!

and the kazhua went to find something to whack the books with!

Jumping rooftops @ 11:27 PM

Not bothering to aim for the points I get in Midd year.
Just hope to pass it this time round.
30 is the minimum target. used to be 50, then 45, 40 and now 30.
it'll be a more than 50% decrease from MYE but I don't care
Feel like sleeping but so much time has already been wasted.
it's a suay month for me.

and the kazhua went to clear the table.

Jumping rooftops @ 8:02 PM

it's happening.
bit by bit.
slowly but surely.
ready to strike anytime.

Deja vu.

and the kazhua went to numb the pain (temporarily).

Jumping rooftops @ 9:49 PM

Tomorrow is the nerve wrecking day! It's the start of promos :o

It's the unpredictable GP tomorrow. Cos my grades for GP is totally unpredictable. Although I know I won't fail (no that I'm being high and mighty but lost probability), but I don't want to get a D or E either. Trying hard to remember main points for my essay but hopefully the things I read will come out so I can use the case studies. Ahhh. I'm freaking out right now.

Well, gotta go back to the notes :s

On a last note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM! sorry we didn't get to go out to celebrate this year but I'll treat you dinner at Swensens tmr:D I love you :)

All the best 0925 and everyone else taking the exams:D

and the kazhua went to read about poverty

Jumping rooftops @ 9:38 PM