many tings has happened tis week. lols..

english prelims is gone and i dunno if i did well or not. was damn nervous in the morning. and in the exam hall too.. think my hand was shaking barhs. paper one was zzz.. all the topics is lyk so hard to write.. and the situational writing too.. wahh.. can die larhs.. lols.. den paper 2 was okay. lols.. in fact easier than common test passage..but i still tink i will do even worst larhs. lols.

today was worth going to sku for. wnted to stay at home to study at first but in the end kena physco-ed to go sku lorhs.. no1. mr hui doing the aces day workout!! haha.. no2. IRVIN and DARYL in SKIRT!! and they din wear pants inside.. haha.. kinda funny.. watching the rest of the guys chase them and filming them down.. lols.. haha.. and our most funniest and heartwarming moment got in.. lols.. but ms lem din come larhs.. sadded. if not it will be much more fun.. but if she came.. i dun tink irvin and daryl would hav worn the skirts larhs.. lols..

im still not able to let go of GB.. lols.. but i hav to larhs.. until my o lvl is over.. haha.. dunno y im still clinging on to it.. haha.. but i still love GB loads.. haha.. limited to 5th coy.. mayb it is cos im worried for GB.. well.. lets jus say dat ppl are no longer the same anymore.. it is more dissapointing and depressing to see someone turn frm gd to bad den frm watching someone turn frm bad to worst.. and sadly.. someone i treasure alot has changed.. haiz.. guess the only ting to do is to guide her back on the right track..

tmr DRILL... lols.. i should stay at hm to study actually.. lols.. lyk wad i said.. i can't let go dat easily.. haha

and the kazhua went "ki-siao"

Jumping rooftops @ 10:43 PM

im happy. the happy kazhua is back(: and hopefully it will stay forever(:

today was FUN!! chem was history lesson. cos mrs teo told us ehr history(: haha. quite entertaining. lols. and den hist got back paper. at least i passed. so up till now. i only failed one sub. but the rest is ain't dat good. only one a which suprisingly is MATHS!! lols and the one dat fail is PHYSICS!! lols. damn weird larhs. haha.

P&D tmr. me and nets pakar go early to "help" haha. guess i can never tear myself away frm GB. lols. keep going back. the other time drill lols. told myself to go home but in the end oso went for drill. lols. gonna do the same ting on monday larhs(:

mus polish boots.. lols. long time din polish the boots already. haha. ExO-POLITICS ROCKS!! haha.. another muse song. josh say he wanna jam stocklym syndrome. lols. he gonna play the bass(: lols.. looking forward to jamming.. at the end of the year.. afetr o lvl. haha. and im gonna leard guitar(: haha. hopefully can play better. afterall, janet and josh say i play guitar more zai. lols.

and the kazhua went to SCREAM IT'S LUNGS OUT

Jumping rooftops @ 8:54 PM

Passed promotion. failed physics. to be happy or to be sad.

well. there's a saying life is not a bed of roses. u wun always get was u wnt. but physics is one of my best sub. and to tink i failed? lols. tis is wad i call oxymoron(: but at least i passed my staff.. hopefully there all will pass!! haha

today was dining ediqute. quite funny anyway. lols. got bread, MUSHROOM SOUP, chicken breast with mushroom sauce and black forest cake. lols. felt lyk puking after the meal. lols.. it wasn't dat nice anyway. haha. took pics. will upload another day. lols.

trying to limit myself to use less com. so dat i can study better. lols. prelims i next week!! T.T dunno if im prepared. well. now is the time to cram everyting into my tiny brain. maximise the usage of the brain and cram cram cram. lols.

i miss the jamming studio. lols. and the josh zao xia singing, all the laughing and everything. well. after o lvl i will be able to jam for as much as i like. lols. and i wnt to build a jamming studio(: haha. but tinking of finding a job after o. lols. guess rite now i should just concentrate on my studies first. haha(:

and the kazhua went to PARAMOUNT HOTEL(:

Jumping rooftops @ 9:01 PM

im gonna go. lols. so many signs. lols. cl will noe wad i mean. mus pin my badges back on my haversack:( mayb it was a blessing in disguise dat i din managed to find ms lim ytd. hav a freaky feelin dat i will fail my promo. lols.

tmr is dining ediqute. lols. dun really look forward to it. kinda waste of time. lols.

drill is absolutely FUN. GB is fun too. lols. made up loads of crap commands with netz. haha. and still hav ppl do. lols. guess all we hav to do is to make it sound convincing barhs. lols. i still love drill. haha. and GB too. mayb the GB prt is limit to 5th coy only(:

gtg do hmwk:( it's piling up!!

and the kazhua woke up(:

Jumping rooftops @ 7:57 PM

to go or not to go. dat's the question.

today was okay. was low in the morning. but in the afternoon managed to become high. lols. lessons were boring. and i passed my chem.(: dat's on of the only good tings dat happened. i expected to fail it as usual cos i rmb the wrong tings. but i still managed to pass. lols.

was "helping" in drill jus now. felt the emptyness. although it was fun shouting and all but still there's a part dat is empty. it's kinda not the same anymore. wnted to find ms lim after sku. ut she's nt around. oh well. i still dunno if i should go or not. gutless bah. lols.

haven't made up my mind yet. perhaps she will advice me. i dunno. relative velocity is kinda fun. lols. i mus be crazy. but i still very blur abt vectors. haiz. take one step at a time.

feel as though im floating in the pacific ocean. directionless, jus floating my way around. no aim. no target. no destination. dreamy mode too. lyk in coma lyk dat. lols.

to go or not to go. dat's the million dollar question.

and the kazhua still haven't woken up

Jumping rooftops @ 7:34 PM

i dun tink im gonna go(: in the end i still dun hav the guts. oh well. there is still until wednesday to change my mind. so till den. i dunno. no guts barhs. i wun noe how to face them and myself.

today was kinda low. lols. can tell mich, lin and yuting were qute worried for me. but i can't say dat im okay. cos i will be lying. and obviously they can tell dat im not myself larhs. but i will pull myself together soon. prelim is lyk next week lorhs. lols. but seriously no mood to study. haha. shall do my best anyway. make sure i study.

got back sm of my common test results. kinda dissapointed barhs. dissapointment one after another. how much worst can it get? at least i passed my add maths.

English: 16/25
Social Studies : 15/25
Add Maths: 24/40
Geography: 16/25

dat's all.. for now. but i tink i will fail my chem. rmb the wrong facts. e maths. damn the probality.. got the freakin last question wrong.. damn.. it is by wad.. not at.. sianz.. must argue tmr.. sianz.. confirm dissapointed tmr derhs.. after all i was born to lose.. a failure will always be a failure.. so must accept it larhs.. dun tink i can eva be an engineer.. perhaps chinese will be the ONLY A dat i hav.. damn the bloody badge.. make me lose my mood..

time to pull myself together.. if dat is possible..

and the kazhua went into COMA

Jumping rooftops @ 7:18 PM

There's a part of me you'll never know
The only thing I'll never show

im a human. human hav emotions. human gets sad, jealous, depressed. so do i. all these time i've been saying it's okay. hu cares. but only just. i found out. i can't pretend dat it doesn't matter to me. and i dunno how to face it.

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter

even though i tried my best. it is still not okay. it's as though all the 4 years is nuthin. 4 years of work and effort cannot be compared to that freakin 4 days. "just be urself" is a stupid ting. u'll only get exploited and used. everyting jus doesn't matter.

I am growing tired
Of allowing you to steal
Everything I have

it's not the first time. people will say. since it's not the first time, why bother. but hu actually will be lyk. hu cares. it's not the first time anyway. no one.. not even me. the taste of ethanoic acid.

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
In a perfect world
This could never happen

i dun tink i hav the courage to face it. i dun tink i can cheer for them. i dun tink i can face them lyk usual. i suddenly feel so small in their presense. it's lyk they inflated or smth. suddenly became so big while i shrunk. it's lyk im a plankton while they are lyk a blue whale. i dunno

I guess it's no use
I'm screwing up every little thing
I ever try to do
I was born to lose

i no longer hav the courage. for the 2 weeks. i thot i was okay with it. but after the 2 fonecalls. i found out dat im not. the tears that were supposed to be shed 2 weeks ago came pouring out. and wad's worst. it is lyk compound interest. acumiliated. im not okay. it means smth to me. the taste of ethanoic acid once again.

even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
a memory of a time when I tried so hard

i ain't gonna try anymore. lose hope. lose faith. lose heart. im a freakin human. im not a robot with no feelins. it will jus be a freakin memory. of a time when i tried so hard. stayed devoted. gave it all. and got nuthin in the end. 4 years is nuthin at all. it's that 4 days of acting dat count. wad the point then. there's no point. IT'S A BIG FAT FREAKIN LIE!!

Save your sympathy
Who do you think you're fooling?
Everything is dead
Now you welcome me,
To a town called hypocrisy

it's useless. in the end it's jus me.. the one hu dun hav the courage to stand up for myself. the one hu let herself get exploited. the one hu failed in everything. the one hu is the plankton. the one hu will never and cannot make it. the one hu is the only one. it sucks being the only one.. the only one hu failed. and the only one hu is crying her heart out. im not dat brave to face it. i dunno how i will react when the time come. will i break down. will i cheer. will i giv a black face. will i jus not even be there. i dunno. i dunno if i can still happily say. "hey, congrats" frm the bottom of my heart. and once again. i find myself askin. wad all the pt of putting in so much effort when it is the 4 day of acting dat actually counts? it's jus hypocrisity in the end. and i seriously dunno how will i react.

and the kazhua went MISSING IN ACTION

Jumping rooftops @ 5:34 PM

ytd oral was damn funny. dunno y the examiner kept laughing. dunno if it is at me or at wad i said :x mayb i shouldn't hav been so light hearted. lols

today was chem. well. i tink i screwed it up. kinda memorise the wrong tings? lols. i finally understood physics. lols. as in some chp larhs. or rather sm part and some hand rule thingy. lols. but i still love physics alot larhs(: it's my fav subject after all.

ytd b4 oral was a lil pissed. shan't mention y here. mayb lyk wad yt said. mus be more understanding or try to understand bah. lols. oh well. mayb im jus too impatient. haha.

got 16 for english common test. dun tink it is quite good but i tink it was okay. mus do SS today. if not cannot get back the SS paper tmr):

gonna go pia my add maths. although i tink it is useless as i wun be able to pass since it is differentciation. as in i prefer integration and kinematics larhs. so much easier. oh well. haha. gotta go pia anyway.

and the kazhua went o.O

Jumping rooftops @ 8:15 PM

im HAPPY. okay. i din get an A1. SO WAT! lols. A2. haha. and it's quite good already. im please. and for once. mum and dad are HAPPY. haha. not dat they are unhappy with my results before. jus quite dissapointed larhs. but even though it is not a one. they are happy dat i got an A. haha. at least i din dissapoint them(:

today was nerve wercking. it was the same feelin when asking for PBB results. if not worst. come to tink of it. in the WOW room. i was damn nervous. Cheryl said my heartbeat was very fast larhs. lols. true larhs. haha.

oh yah. cheryl is my dining ediqutte partner. the whole partner ting is lyk very messy now. lols. dunno hu we are gonna go with. lols.

tmr is E maths common test. GOGO KAZHUA!! haha. mus aim for an A. im targeting all A's mayb dat is immpossible mayb all B3. haha. gtg study.

p.s. im not angry at all larhs. lols(:

and the kazhua went to DU SHU (:

Jumping rooftops @ 7:32 PM

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went to bugis with my family ytd. quite fun. lols. but i rather go suntec again. lols. i lyk the carrefour. din buy anything at bugis. dad bought some random stuff. lols. saw the DHL balloon. memories of jamming(:

im starting to get irritated by all the direction thingy. okay. lets end it. i wasn't facing the center. but i wasn't looking at anyone specificlly. and i was looking at the audience okay(:

im not gonna jump band ( TOO BAD ELMO :D ). lols as long as there is Z-minor. there will not be a WELMO wadsoeva. help out go for jamming is okay. but no joining. and Z-minor will NEVER BREAK UP!! i WUN let it happen. NUTHIN will come in between the 3 of us derhs. we been thru all the up and downs. we almost falled apart last year but thank God we din so we can survive thru this derhs. IM LOYAL TO MY BAND:)

prelims is lyk 2-3 weeks away. and im freaking not ready at all. when i study. i found out how little i noe abt the stuffs. it's lyk close to middle of the mth. and prelims is end of the mth. man im screwed. common test too. i finally know the meaning of feeling stressed. gonna go drown myself in books. tmr getting Chinese results. hopefully can get an A1. seriously speaking. if i dun get an A. i will be freakin dissapointed.

Simple Plan - Perfect World
I never could've seen this far
I never could've seen this coming
It seems like my world's falling apart, yeah
Why is everything so hard?
I don't think I can deal with the things you said
It just won't go away

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through, yeah
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cause I can't let go I just can't find my way, yeah
Without you I just can't find my way

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

I don't know what I should do now
I don't know where I should go
I'm still here waiting for you
I'm lost when you're not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can't let you go
yeah, yeah

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
You feel nothing, nothing at all
Nothing at all

and the kazhua went to freakin drown itself

Jumping rooftops @ 4:05 PM

went to sku to " paint" GB room today. din paint in the end cos ms lim said at the end of the years the sku repainting. so me and janet jus draw out THE GIRS BRIGADE. painted them silver and yellow and stick them on the door. it look ubber nice:)

in the process. listened to the radio:)) nice songs. lols. heard a song i was looking for a long time but still dunno the title larhs:( ms lim came. yah. gave us a shock larhs. lols. din expect her to come to sku.haha.

ytd night was STRESSED. shan't mention it here. lols if not ppl will tink crooked. lols. not dat it is anything crooked. lols. i still dun believe. hmpf. no offence larhs:)

today was fun fun fun:) haha. loves janet^^ lols. the drummer. GB white board is veru nice now tnks to me and janet. lols. all the brigade knowledge stuff on it. lols. can g teach sec one lerhs. haha. i love GB room door too:)) our masterpiece. lols. oh yah. pictures:) kena pranked by janet too. oh well. guess im still naive. haiz T.T

pictures:))

ROCKSTARS X3


PHANTOM :O


DRUMMER ; BASSIST ; NO. 1 FAN :)

the rose

Jumping rooftops @ 9:03 PM

ytd was ABSOLUTELY FUN!!

the NDP was tiring but after dat. me and janet rushed to chance for the performance. oh yah. jiahui a.k.a. DADDY gave us flowers. lols. i got a rose. quite nice actually:) THANKS DADDY!!

rockstar pass. lols. it let us get in the backstage, in the hall, anywhere:)) cool. got to see the lucify guys behind stage and the CSS peeps. lols. lols. performance was nice or GREAT. haha. we totally rock larhs. lols. dat's in my perspective larhs. haha. din really move around much :/ but can say we've enjoyed ourself larhs.. josh was damn nervous larhs. lols. his heart was lyk jumping very fast. but i tink he was okay barhs. lols. mummy was there. daddy was somewhere in the hall. they said we were great:)) den after performance slacked. lols. both of us went siao for 1248. lols. jiangwei and vivian dey all were staring at us larhs. lols. orange light sticks rocks:))

pic coming up. not the performance one though. dunno if anyone took pics for us:( so if hav drop a tag or send me online keas? haha. it was fun.

11 minutes of misery!! ROCK ON:)) wun be jamming for a long time.. exams u noe. but when we jam next time. we will be better!! RAHHHHHH!!! and i did face the audience okay:)) one year anniversary. no when we formed but when we first jammed. lols. dunno if the rest rmb it or not. haha. one year has passed. all the ups and downs. ppl left. now no guitarist. haiz. but luckily darren and chris helped us ytd. if not we wun be able to perform lerhs. thanks guys:) haha. so fun. the burger was nice too.. yummy. and hmm. shall i return the bass. lols. time to psycho again:)

Z-MINOR~ THE LONELY 5 ( now 3) KIDS~ 11 MINUTES OF MISERY~ JANET ~ JOSH~ WEILI~ 2707~ 0808 X3

and the kazhua went ROCK ON :))

p.s. tnks for the flowers and the letter:)

Jumping rooftops @ 10:18 PM

alot of tings happened tis week. there are ups and downs.

tuesday 31072007:
my BIRTHDAY! after common test went to AMK with jocelyn, janet, qianning and chenning. went NEBO to eat. quite nice. i like the cheese fries. lols. den after dat went blackie house. quite fun barhs. lols. it is nice to celebrate birthday with frens. den i went hm to celebrate with my parents..

wednesday 01082007:
went penut butter strawberry jammin with Z-minor a.k.a. 11 minutes of misery. and for once i din even touch the bass at all. played guitar for josh. and turn out im more play guitar better den bass. janet even said i was better den fadly. lols. so suprised. den josh was lyk saying if chris and darren dun help us, den we say our bassist on MC. lols. so im promoted to a guitarist:) and josh will learn bass. but for the performance chris and darren will play larhs. hmm. how am i gonna write the band bio thingy...

thur 02082007:
NDP full dress rehersal. and damn i din bring my gloves and tabs for josh. lols. den gregory was being IRRITATING!! lols.. den tok abt the performance thingy larhs. dey said cannot play i never. sadded. now playing adventure. haiz. but okay barhs. mus o memorise new tabs. hmmm.

friday 03082007:
okay. today heard the PBB news. and yup i failed. okay. haha. expected it larhs. and of cos im sad. but oh well. lols. ppl tink im in a state of shock. lols. cos under normal circumstances, i will lyk be damn depressed and i wun smile or anything. lols. PBB only wad. even ms lim was surprised at the results larhs. haha. everyone else passed:)) congrats. lols. mayb dat was y she din come down a chase us hm to study when she saw me during the drill training. lols. i tink ppl were also shocked dat i will fail. oh well. next time. f im gonna go for it again. i noe. being the nice person is always no use. mus fight for it. but i dun tink i can do it barhs. for a moment, i really did not wnt tog o back to GB anymore. but then, GB is not all abt PBB wad. lols. hopefully i can get my staff rank. lols. so im not gonna cry anymore. not dat i cried alot. haha. drill was fun. really took my mind off tings. lols. and i was lyk. how could i eva tink of not going back eva again. lols. b4 drill was wandering around sku with janet. lols. wondering sound wrong. haha. and damn. kena bluff again. ROAR!! i cannot trust ppl too much. or believe them

at night went diner with yuting, mich, cl and rach. at toa payoh. lols. quite fun. and shit man. my telephone is gonna burst larhs!! roar. lols. im not gonna pick up fone anymore.. lols.. unless it is really urgent. if not i will go bankrupt. haha.

today04082007:
study study. lols. and kena addicted to a song. although i still love rooftops:)

What I've Done - Linkin Park

In this farewell
There is no blood
There is no alibi
Cause I’ve drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies
So let mercy come
And wash away

What I’ve done
I’ll face myself
To cross out
What I’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of
What I’ve done

Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands
Of uncertainty
So let mercy come
And wash away

What I’ve done
I’ll face myself
To cross out
What I’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of
What I’ve done

For what I’ve done
I’ll start again
And whatever pain
May come
Today this ends
I’m forgiving

What I’ve done
I’ll face myself
To cross out
What I’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of
What I’ve done

Forgiving what I’ve done

and the kazhua went " im NOT naive"

Jumping rooftops @ 4:15 PM